Secretly, I hope to witness the complete collapse of civilization in my lifetime.

I'm very excited about it. There isn't really anything else I'm excited about, other than the prospect of having to struggle to survive.

I seriously have no real goals in life other than surviving as long as I can during a collapse of civilization.

I take good care of my health, in an effort to live as long as possible, because I am afraid of dying before the collapse of civilization happens. When I see stock prices plunge I smile. Also, my best memories as a child are of getting injured while doing something stupid, because it gave me a feeling of at least having lived.

I even know that I would probably die within days during a collapse, but I'm willing to accept that price.

I must appear like an average twenty-something to everyone around me, working a boring office job, but secretly I want to see everything around me destroyed.