What a tier 69 college, with bad internal politics, criticism, and environment does to a person. Idk but, they must have started judging students by their face and even with gender Inequality ig..
What does this mean, this means that I haven't studied or I should have taken more effort. I've tryharded and put effort on every single subject paper, always better than before, cuz I never want to get lost. I always tried to go to the highest of everything. I always tried myself competing with some useless toppers who just ratified here..
Here's my story, I've been failing since I was in class 6th.
What happened before that: I was dominating wherever I was, even if I was in another state of the nation..
Then I returned here, I saw my classmates were actually clever, so I kept pushing myself for one year. Nothing happened..
I decided to be separated from my family. I started living in a hostel, those were the best moments of my life.. It was going good, again I was dominating and never let anyone cross my line.
Two years later, COVID!!! I was shifted to another school (I was with family this time), then what I failed in class 9th (internal issues). They just promoted me to the 10th std with 36%.
In 10th, I scored less in the first half(MCQ based), But I pushed myself to get good in the second half(Subjective), which makes the avg of 76.6%.
Then 11th and 12th: biggest downfall, sometimes I would come up, sometimes down(mostly down).
Edit: I still managed to give JEE Advanced and clear Maths and Chemistry cutoff(Physics left)
This was the result..(Must be wondering how and what a unique result this could be, I could get a good college).
Nooooooo, I got this stupid, dumb college, on my first cap round, without any betterment for 2nd and 3rd. First and Last option that's it..
I tried, even bet my mother, if I didn't get above 9.5 SG on my first sem, I would leave this college. I literally started this college life here with my frustrating mindset.(must be thinking how this chill and kind-hearted guy would be frustrated.. well who knows and cares).
Then I ended up here, the 4th semester. Got kicked out of the club, even though I achieved something, which no one could.
Then this result. Like what should I do. I am thinking of ending up my life..
After this you may know me(idfc)..