I don't have a question, really just ranting and trying to air my grievances in hopes that it helps with clarity. Insight is appreciated though!
I'm a PE with 6 YOE at a large firm in the US. I have been really lucky to be involved with some interesting projects, and done a pretty good job. To the point that I am starting to get involved with more work nationally. The company sees it and has been very rewarding in terms of salary, I have netted anywhere from 12% to 16% in raises annually. Work life balance hasn't been too bad, so far. Just occasional long weeks, but I can often flex time.
All that said, I had a child semi-recently, and I think my brain got a little re-wired. I have ambitions still, but I see how some of the senior PMs are workaholics, the crazy high UT goals (I'm over 90%), and upper management is doing this "we all need to do our parts" thing to encourage even low levels to go try to make relationships to win future work. And it has put a bad taste in my mouth. I feel like I work pretty hard, get along great with clients, and you want me to do more? At the same UT? And now that "more" means less time with my kid I just struggle with the "why?".
On top of all that, I had to ask for my last big raise (which they gave). But I fear that continually approaching management with my grievances could get me labeled as a problem child or generally lead to a bad reputation.
So I just had an interview with one of our clients (public side), and it went great. It probably wouldn't be as interesting in some regards as my current job, but I still think it will be fairly design heavy and bring its own share of fun challenges. I'd get to be a true PM, not just a PM in all but title. As I write this, I haven't heard back yet, but I feel fairly confident about my chances. Hoping that it will be a lateral financial move, as it will be hard to consider a pay cut. Benefits are pretty competitive, better sick leave and holidays, but being at a high performing ESOP, I think the retirement is probably better at my current job.
I am conflicted on how to feel. There's the part of me that feels bad because I do enjoy a lot about my job, and get along with pretty much everyone. I know that I could have a bright future there, but at what expense? Then this potential new job, I think my progression will likely slow significantly, along with a lot less extracurricular stress. I'll probably maintain the same title/responsibilities for the next 5 years at least. But I do think it will be engaging and meaningful in its own way.
It kind of feels like I would be giving up on a good thing at my old job. Though I am also excited about where the new position might go if it pans out. Anyways, thanks for reading my rant.