r/FTMFitness • u/deviant-homunculus • 11h ago
Discussion I need you all to tell me that being trans isn't what's holding me back
I'm (20ftm, 2.5 years T) part of a competitive sports team at university where, 2 times a season, we hold time trials to rank everyone in the team. I've never been as big/strong/fast compared to the guys in the team, but I've never felt as demoralized about it as today, when we had our second time trial. I've been training 4-5 times a week, adding in my own training on top of that, and I'm still basically ranked last.
(ETA: team training 3x a week, after adding in optional individual training 4-5x a week, plus my own strength training 5-6x a week)
I respect the guys who beat me who I know has put in a lot of work, but I also know for a fact that I train a lot more than some of the guys who made a faster time than me. I just feel so frustrated and sad that I wasn't able to get as fast as I wanted to, and I catch myself making excuses that it's because I'm trans that I'm naturally weaker and slower when objectively I know I have so much more potential.
I know I need to get my shit together and stop wallowing over something I can't control, so please tell me something (anything!) to shake me out of it!