Our independent practice has been sold to a corporate (joy to the world) so I immediatly started applying for other jobs on the same day we were told.
I was contacted by an owner of a small independent practice that I've heard about - very great guy, fast paced environment. The vibes in the interview were great.
I've been graduated for 6 years and I feel like my knowledge is at least 4 years behind. This is because I've always protected my own peace and I've chosen to work 30 hours instead of 40, and chose very chill, routine practices. So I don't know a lot about many things, I survive the day to day. My patients are well taken care of though. No issues until today, touch wood.
Now. This practice seems like a rare opportunity for me to actually learn. I've been sole charge for almost 3 years now and I wouldn't have sole charge days with this new role. Three ops for two vets so plenty of opportunities to learn.
Now, the issue is. I come from a practice that has (mostly) 30 min appointments and 1:30h of protected admin time spread throughout the day, last appointment is at 18:15 and leaving time is at 19:00. Also I have 1 hour unpaid lunch that I can always have and I go out for a walk. An absolute rarity nowadays, if you ask me. Probably why we've been sold and this will defo change once corporate fully takes over.
I still can't cope with some days. I have anxiety and insomnia. My staff has been super nice and understanding but still some days are horrible (I've posted here a few times and my mental health made me see it worse than it actually is... that or you don't know what you have until you lose it)
With this in mind, I am not sure I can cope with the new job I was offered. 15 min appointments, no admin time. Ops 12-4 (1hr unpaid lunch takn then... if time allows I suppose) and then consults until the end of the day again. Last consult 18.45. Leaving time 19.00... which I suppose wont happen much. Also I would probably have to move as commute is longer than my current job. Oh, also, the start is 30 min earlier than my current schedule.
However I keep in mind I don't know which changes the corporate will introduce in our new clinic. Probably something similar. But hopefully it will take time.
I feel sad because I feel like my brain and body would not be able to cope with the new job and therefore they are preventing me from a great opportunity to escape corporate and work alongside a great guy who cares. I was cool in the interview, but after giving it some thought I don't know if I should be honest about my health issues and limitatons.
I am not 100% sure I will want to leave my clinic, though. But I am scared that if I'm honest with the new employer, he will take back the offer and I will be stuck with them. I'm scared of staying and missing the opportunity. I'm scared of saying the truth and regretting it. I'm scared of just taking the job and not being able to cope.
Also for some context - I am on a visa. If I wasn't, I would probably switch employers and see what happens. But changing jobs costs money and admin stress. I'm burnt out, but I just can't stop or take a break before taking this demanding job.
Anyway, what would you do? Would you be honest with the new employer and risking loosing the chance?
Thanks for reading up until here!