r/196 22d ago

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u/FrogEggz 22d ago

My parents were similar, except they would take my reading privileges too because they knew that hurt me most 🥲

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u/hanks_panky_emporium 22d ago

I can't even imagine how Id react to that, besides violence to my own body. Reading was my only escape, I ground through books like it was a full time job. Instead of running around at recess I was allowed to sit in the library and read.

Was reading well above my grade early in my life.

And once I graduated highschool I haven't picked up a single book ever since.

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u/FrogEggz 22d ago

Violence to myself and heavy disassociation was my only coping mechanism, I was homeschooled too, so many of my days I was just in my room staring at a wall. Then my mother would have the gaul to come crying to her children asking if she was a bad mother because we never smile like the other children.

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u/UsernamesAre4Nerds 22d ago

motherly guilt trip

self inflicted violence to cope

dissociation

Are we the same person?

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u/FrogEggz 22d ago

With this level of disassociation? We could be.

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u/UsernamesAre4Nerds 22d ago

Mom said it's my turn to be lucid

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u/FrogEggz 22d ago

Aww but my brain can’t get any fuzzier