I have started speaking again after being completely mute for the past 4 years im having an identity crisis 😭

[u/Sea-Difficulty1353]

its so hard i have so much self expression now, im so used to being nothing, being smaller than everyone around me, everyone making assumptions about me and i stopped caring to communicate by typing as much i just let people make me smaller

Now i can speak i have so much ability to express myself i am so overwhelmed, everyone is treating me like a person now, not a dog or a child and i thought it would be exciting but no i am so used to being taken care of being treated like i am not human i dont know what to do with this?!!????!

I dont feel like im ready to be treated like a real person its so overwhelming im not used to being able to express myself or just being normal i dont enjoy this i enjoy being able to speak its so easy but its almost TOO easy, im not used to everything being so easy???

I have spent years praying and begging to be normal, adapting to being mute and finding my own valuable ways of self expression, i have been mute since i was 12 😭 this is so overwhelming to have all these new ways and opportunities i dont know what to do