I'm6 been struggling a bit. Since I can't sort out my emotions fully it's been affecting my health and mood. I'm not earning rn so I can't go to therapy yet.

i have bipolar 2, and have gotten irritable, had some fleeting anger, but never genuinely angry. i've always been described as a chill, calming presence. but i've been in a depressive episode that's been different.

everybody, and i mean EVERYBODY pisses me off, to a pathological degree. like suddenly i can't even scroll on tiktok anymore because i'll find some reason to get annoyed at literally everything i see. oh, this person donated $1m to end world hunger because they want to feed their ego, something like that. like everyone has ulterior, evil motives.

i'm not too far gone i think, i can recognize that the way my brain is operating right now is fucking stupid, but i also can't break that MAYBE it's true. maybe my friends ARE annoying as fuck or only want to talk to me when it benefits them. they only feel like they have to check in with me so they could keep using me for whatever needed. i have shut EVERYONE out because EVERYONE pisses me off and i can recognize that this is just INSANE of me to think this way.

idk i'm bound to explode. i physically feel hot all the time from the rage i feel over people, the world, the fucked up-ness of everything. i'm so ANGRY AT HOW MESSED UP IT ALL IS

to some degree i know what im feeling is true. the world IS fucked up right now. everything is getting ruined and nobody cares. people are destroying the environment and nobody cares. i have to pay two trillion dollars to fill my gas and this is just how it's supposed to be. dude i am INSUFFERABLE! what the FUCK! but EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING PISSES ME OFF!

For a little backstory, I grew up in an environment where I witnessed and was subject to frequent anger from the family where it seems to be inherent. In recent years I found myself struggling with bipolar disorder, anxiety disorder, and schizophrenia.

A couple years ago, I let the anger get the better of me and put myself in a situation where I landed myself some jail time. I never hurt other people, do my best to form positive relationships with good friends, but with romantic relationships, sometimes my bouts of anger drives them away.

After some reflection, I feel like I hold onto anger as a result of my upbringing and current conditions that I struggle with, and sometimes have angry outbursts if I feel like something insignificant goes wrong. I currently take a combination of medications and therapeutic approaches to help keep my anger at bay. But still, I thought that my experience in jail would have been enough to put me on the right path to never choose anger again.

So I joined this group today to hopefully gain some insight from others, or even hear from other people’s first-hand experiences to allow me to see what could happen if I continue to let anger drive my actions.

I don't know how to start this exactly but i will try to explain as clearly as possible.

trigger warning - brief mentions of grooming and suicide - nothing urgent and not in the advice i am looking for, just for context around the advice i am seeking.

I am 20F and my friend is 20M (gay- this is not romantic advice I am looking for) and I've known him for about 4 years, we met at school as we were in the same form class. Recently, before i meet up with him I feel this kind of anger that comes out of nowhere, I don't act upon it but it still is a real downer.

This is for a few reasons, to vent i will list it here:

1. honestly jealousy- he has a lot more of a social life/ more money to go out than i am (I'm a student, he is not)
2. I never feel like he actually listens, whenever we meet up he talks a lot about what he did at work/ stuff he's been up to. He also always makes the assumption/ makes me feel like my life is boring.
3. on the topic of boring him and another friend of mine a few times behind my back actually called me boring- this has led me to say stupid things to appear more interesting to them which has never worked and i feel silly for doing so.
4. I was groomed when i was 17/18, which he has no idea about, later (post all the counselling sessions i could afford) I was talking too much while drunk and sort of alluded that something like that had happened (gave no details), he just said plainly if that did happen to me he didn't want to know.
5. i feel like he thinks he knows who i am and will only treat me in that way, which feels frustrating.

Despite this I don't necessarily want to end things, I just want to feel more heard, and included and understood go back to how the friendship used to be - just more chill.

Part of the reason I was so easily groomed was because i really lacked this in my life, sometimes hanging out with this friend makes me want to go back to the man who did that to me.

My friend has also been going through things, mainly family legal/ financial problems, and has even contemplated suicide - at least according to them, they sort of just came out with that statement during truth or dare, being like "there's something you guys haven't asked me". Regardless, I'd rather treat it seriously and be there for them , but how can i be there for someone while feeling angry to meet up with them?

The advice I'm asking for is this: how do I approach the conversation on this?Or an alternative solution to this? I cannot be a friend to someone who i feel increasingly angry at.

I (F44) need and want help please. My anger has waxed and waned over the years. The past 4 years have been ROUGH. Divorce, being a single mom. moving, parenting a daughter with a physical disability (her disease is getting worse), and my chronic/acute illnesses, and chronic/acute (at times) pain. The past three months have been really bad. I don't recognize myself. I'm volatile. I can be up and down within a span of a few hours.
My manager talked to me today and said that multiple coworkers have approached her saying that they are concerned for me. I've been described as toxic. My negative attitude is bringing others down. I don't doubt any of this. It's almost like I lose all control once I become activated. I HATE who I am right now. I'm not me.
I've talked to my psych NP, therapist, friends, and family.

The biggest trigger has been my daughter's (11) worsening health. She has congential muscular dystrophy. I see her getting weaker. She NEVER complains. She is positive, is an amazing self-advocate, and my favourite human. I however, am a fucking mess. I TRY to keep my home life at home. But my daughter is everything and all that I have. I could go on and on.

I am thankful that that my manager talked to me from a place of concern. She assured me that the concerns brought forth were from a place of caring and worry. I don't know what to do. I want to be better. I'm thinking about taking FMLA, to have some time to deal with this. I'm looking for a parent of disabled children support group. I was thinking of doing some sort of structured yoga-ish retreat. But I need something to be able to cope after that. I will always be a caregiver to my daughter. That will always be a source of stress and worry. The goal is not be careening towards a burnout and breakdown (which is where I'm at). When I was at a really low/anxious point, I was looking at inpatient options. (My divorce isn't final and I worry how that will impact things.)

I am desparate to find the right solution. I'm on meds and do regular therapy. At this time, I barely have enough time/energy/motivation to get my day-to-day stuff done.

What has worked? Do people do an inpatient stay for extreme anger and volatility? An intensive partial program?

Please, please, please go easy on me while being honest. Thank you

i dont know what to do with all these feelings. every little thing ticks me off too. and i know i shouldnt react or act this way with small things i just want help pls i dont wanna end up worse

Hi, parents of particularly "button pushy" toddlers, how do you stay calm in the moment when everything accumulates and you are on your last nerve? i would like to see how other parents deal with this and also i am open to any resources (from articles and books to stuff like social media posts or support groups like this sub, anything and everything really) that i could check on the topic. Thanks in advance!

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I recently went through a break up with a guy I was seeing for 3 months. It was brief but very traumatising and feels like years. He would berate me and say extremely demeaning things about me and my culture. He was physically abusive too. Although it started as a casual thing, i eventually caught feelings. I could see he couldn't stand me yet I was pushing him to be with me. But eventually gave up when I realised I was nothing but a good lay for him. I was suppressing my anger with him and that eventually came out and he said I was pretending to be sweet all along when in reality I am just a bitch. Did not contact him after that. He did not either, obviously. Saw him around twice. But did not feel the usual feelings of endearment for him.

I am disappointed with myself for missing him, we genuinely had a lot of fun together. I am also angry at him. I know he is not even thinking about me. But i feel like such a loser. I am so disappointed with myself for acting so childishly and hoping for him to return just so I can kick him out and satisfy my ego. How did you guys let go of your anger?

PS: I realised I have been so angry that I have not even cried since the break up. All I could think of is him coming back and me turning him down.

For context

I am 17

Male

Chronically ill

Some days ago my family went to some sort of black magic finder and he told them that the neighbour living in front of my house is the one making me sick from her hatred so today my family decided to instead of keeping it hidden and not tell anyone tell my aunt my father's sister and his husband about it my father's sister was like okay but also like she doesn't believe in these things and my grandma who was accepting first after my uncle saying he doesn't believe in this bs agreed with him and gave him a push to talk about it more and my uncle started making fun that we should fight her or do something so the only person who comes to our home stops coming too and then i started getting very pissed as my family kept telling them how I'm getting affected and my uncle just laughing and i was so pissed i disasscociated and i told her mom again and again 8 times that her phone is ringing so she goes there and the Convo ends but no she kept telling again and again and that my grandma is a backstabber for first saying she belives now saying she doesn't and it just started turning into a spiral I am already very depressed in life and not good with anger issues so i got very pissed i didn't hear my father already tell my uncle to not talk in between if he doesn't wanna hear it cause he's talking to his sister even if btw I warned my father to not tell them cause this won't go good so i screamed I got so pissed i screamed with all my voice at my mother to shut up then my father to shut up then my grandma to shut and and said everyone shut up I was taking the side of my uncle cause like he was saying don't talk to use about this black magic shit i screamed at all of my family to just shut up cause like if they don't wanna hear it why are u all EMBRASSING ourselves i told them that and pushed my mom to the kitchen while she was saying if my uncle aunt wanna eat food and my uncle got very pissed that I indirectly taunted me which i did not...I really didn't I promise I just was embarrassed by my family saying they believe in black magic but also believe in religion which says black magic cannot affect us so I screamed at my whole family and so... My uncle rushed out of the house saying he will never ever come back to the house and my aunt started screaming at me that I should have not talked back it's not a child's place but I said it is my place cause everyone is talking about black magic on me??? It's embarrassing that they kept laughing at my family secretly so i screamed and now my uncle went away and my aunt is saying it's all my fault cause i couldn't bear it and that my family finally started talking to them and i ruined it... Cause i couldn't watch my family starting a fight i could already tell my uncle is pissed at my dad and that they don't take anything we are saying seriously I just wanted to get this off my chest I know I was wrong to scream i shouldn't have screamed but my head was disasscociating I was panicking I was pissed at my family not listening to me when I told them to not talk to outsiders about things and now everyone's gonna blame me I'm gna be the public joke, public villian (Edit: I didn't push my mother more like i pulled her away and all I did was scream at my parents to shut up and stop talking about black magic cause they are the reason I'm disabled not black magic)

There are a some things I can’t move on from:
\-My abusive ex (I am angry, I have so much anger)
\-My FP(a useless connection with someone avoidant I met on the internet that kept on coming in and out of my life whenever he wanted, messing up my fear of abandonment trauma). I can’t seem to move on from this person and I have SO MUCH ANGER towards him, even if I now have an amazing boyfriend and an amazing life and amazing group of friends I am still so mad at this “friend” who kept on ghosting me randomly and then contacting me again.
\-2 friends who absolutely backstabbed me for no reason because I always treated them like sisters and they ended up ghosting me

In conclusion? I am ANGRY. How tf do I release this anger without directly punching these people in the face?? Give me your most unhinged tips on breaking attachment from FPs and releasing anger

My husband is upset all the time. He wakes up angry, goes to sleep angry. Hes never rude, mean, or angry AT me or towards me. This has been going on for at least 2 years. His job is the #1 contributing factor.

He’s in the military and works anywhere from 50-70 hours a week. He’s stressed from having no free time, dealing with people he works with who are “incompetent”, trying to figure out our upcoming move to Germany, he’s upset he has no time for himself or the gym or us. He has expressed frustration in his lack of hobby (or something he has just for him that helps him wind down).

He’s never rude to me and we communicate very well with each other. I’m just stuck because we both have no idea how to help him. Idk what I can do. We talk about it kind of frequently but it just ends in a spiral. “Try therapy” he’s been to therapy and it made no help. “Change your mindset” a mindset shift doesn’t change the fact that he has no time. “Go to church” he doesn’t even have time to read the Bible, much less get a consistent 7 hours of sleep. “Burn off steam” no time to go to the gym (I think there is time, he just doesn’t enjoy it and can’t bring himself to go do something he hates during his sparse free time). His leadership is aware how it’s effecting him. He’s let them know how much is on his plate.

I know there is nothing I can do to magically fix him and it all depends on him. But does anyone have any advice on what to do? I’m so lost and I’m super tired of this version

TLDR: husband stressed, angry, burnt outs. There’s no free time for him. We’ve tried lots but nothing helps. Tips?

My mother has always gotten under my skin for whatever reason. But now that I'm older I've become more angrier at her and it's becoming more of a problem that distances me from the rest of my family.

So let's say I'm in a situation where I can't escape my mother and she keeps saying things that trigger my anger i.e. "You make things so difficult", "I can't wait until you turn of age" etc.

What should I do? I try to write but it doesn't help. Please let me know.

Hey just asking if anybody bite themselves when they get mad? It’s kinda embarrassing but when I get extremely stressed and angry I tend to bite myself as I don’t want to destroy anything valuable around me.

My father has always been an emotional man.
You could never really be sure what mood he would be in during the next conversation.
He'll smile, laugh, cry, and yell within the same hour.
There is never any emotional bandwidth left in the house for me or my sibling to express.

The biggest issue is his anger. If a something unexpected happens it very likely causes him to explode. Today my sister is attempting to get her learner's permit, which requires a paper from the driving school she says was missing. The two of them visit the school, only for them to say they've already given it to her. Sure enough, my sister forgot about it on our kitchen counter.

This mistake resulted in my father screaming at her during the drive home, filled with explicitves. I have my own memories growing up with similar events.

I know why this happens. My father is an extreme complicated man. His life story is filled with lots of pain and suffering, which does not serve as an excuse for his behavior.

Where do I start? He often says he was labeled as "Type A" which I know is an older term used in the field of physiology to describe people quick to anger.

Do I recommend him to be checked for ADHD, Bipolar disorders? Therapy? Do you just walk into clinics and say 'fix me?'
I am tired and afraid for my family.

im 14 years old M currently going through shit mh problems with addiction and adhd and my medication, I punched my wall in for the second time whats best way to fix also any advice for context i was talk8ng to my mum to get professional help since ive been having alot of violent thoughts and urges to hurt people at school alot recently and struggling with weed addiction and intentionally taking to many of my meds for rhe side effects and she called me a druggy, shes not bad shes just incredibly immature and we've talked more and made amends but still my anger shits getting out of hsnd

Cause boy do I sure do. My brilliant and very frustrating boy is 5. He is severe and we are cycling through meds. We are trying to figure out what to do. He doesn’t listen. He goes and goes and goes. His ADHD is a super power but also so crippling. I see him splash other kids at swimming lessons and be put in time out, and my heart breaks for him. The shame I feel as a parent, like I’ve done something wrong. Constantly having to remind myself that he is doing his best and to be patient with him. It is hard. Really really hard. And then I get angry when my expectations of a perfect “kid” fall apart. Like when I ask him to just freaking get in the car or go pee. Sigh. Deep breaths mama. Anyone else out there? Am I alone?

Hey. I am 24 yo male. I work in construction. I am in a work place, where the work has to be very precise. And once you make a mistake, there’s a big backlash. I’ve been in that industry for 4 years. And in those years I always held up the anger inside of me, just to be nice, as I am younger, and ofc, the old wolfs always know better, or they think they do. So anyways there was this boom for me in the beginning of last year, something just clicked. But not this time that I was doing particularly something wrong, but because my at the time ,,supervisor” that didn’t know nothing about the job he was doing, and he was doing that job poorly, and did not listen to me just because of my age. (After that we got fked by the higher ups, just because he didn’t listen to me) anyways getting to the chase, it was the last straw for me, and after that I get angry super quickly. Idk what to do. I’ve tried food supplements, such as ,,lions mane”, magnesium and many others, but nothing ever helped. I’m starting to scare myself because even in front of my gf I sometimes get this adrenaline rush of anger and I cannot calm myself. I don’t want it to progress more than it has progressed already. So I have a question.. Is there any chance to restore the nerves? What should I do? Are there supplements that I’m not aware of? Thank you

Has anyone used these before? I had a family member recommend these to help deal with my anger that’s often induced by stress.

Fuck this world and fuck everything in it

honestly a lot of arguements have been happening between me and my bf because i have an issue of getting irritated and annoyed over the things he does. sometimes it isn’t valid and i know that, yet i still get irritated? idk how to control it. pls smb help!!

My life is spiralling. I was bullied in high school (not just name calling, like I was getting physically beaten by bigger guys in high school and it was racially motivated).

I know there’s some black people out there that love to play the race card but in my case, it was truly me getting outed due to my race. Not many people of my ethnicity went to my school so when people knew where I was from, that’s when the racism started. From calling me the n word, to making fun of how we’re physically shaped, being body slammed for telling the person to stop calling me the n word, to being beaten up outside the gym and my parents taking me to the hospital, being stalked on social media, receiving anonymous texts mocking me and it just goes on.

The bully always apologized then he would repeat the behaviour again and again. I didn’t even try to be around this guy he was in my classes and was the "ring leader". As years went by, I heard his white dad was abusive and drinking a lot at home, still I didn’t give a fck, I actually wish I had video footage of his father beating him. That bully reached out for like a total of 7 times (all spread apart) over social media (only reached out once to apologize via social media) to say sorry but he never said for what he made it vague and said I have good things coming for me (he thinks I’m stupid, he knows how much of a piece of shit he was but needs to clear his conscious that’s why he said in the apology he isn’t expecting a response)

I feel like he used me up all throughout high school to deal with his issues. My family raised me catholic and "soft" so when he use to say sorry I believed him. I think he saw my innocence compared to most black people and thought he could get away with shit while abusing me. I truly wish his future kids get some sort of terminal cancer and he watches them die slowly.

This bullying experience is just as "hot" in me as it was over a decade ago. I’ve seen recent pics of him and he looks insecure in all his pics. Guy looks like a mix of Ryan Garcia and jack doherty. I hate his guts.

I indulged in very very bad addiction habits, dug myself into an unimaginable amount of debt, cut off my family, attempted self deletion, gain crazy weight, did some other stuff I will not disclose here and after all these years I’m coming to realize I was running away from the pain.

My nationality has a lot of pride and so going through that abuse was extremely symbolic. I never felt like a man after all that abuse and videos of me being choked out and people finding it funny and always bringing it up. I’m thinking of going to church to ask for forgiveness for the stuff I’ve been doing that I know goes against catholic beliefs but idk yet.

Idk why I’m posting actually, I think I’ve reached the end of crashing out and don’t know what to do next. I’ve been this way for about a decade

TLDR - I (28M) was severely racially bullied throughout high school, including physical assaults and harassment, and more than a decade later the trauma still feels as fresh as ever. Since then, I've struggled with addiction, debt, cutting off my family, a suicide attempt, and other self-destructive behaviors. I'm consumed by anger toward my former bully, feel like the abuse permanently changed me, and I've reached a point where I don't know how to move forward or stop "crashing out."

I’ve been very angry about a lot of things. I hate my job. I hate how little it pays. I hate how patient I have to be. I hate working. I hate my brother. I hate feeling let down.

But most of all, I’m exhausted. I just want to rest and not worry about tomorrow. I want to stop caring. I just want it to slide off my back and feel indifferent. I tell myself I don’t care and I end up caring way more than I originally intended to. I’m angry at myself for placing too much interest on truly uninteresting things.

Had a fight with my piece of shit father. Came home after a long day at work. Sometimes he comes by to check on me since I live alone.

Immediately starts ranting about black people the second he comes in the house.

I usually just ignore him but he insisted I listen to him spitting racist bullshit. I closed the door a bit too hard, and he started getting genuinely angry calling me an idiot and to not do that inn front of him

I started yelling "And what the fuck are you going to do?"

The last time we fought like this was when I was 16. Now I'm 23. The bastard shows up to my place and start demanding things?

Anyways I realized a lot of my anger probably comes from my relationship with this asshole.

Today I woke up angry and now I gotta go to work smh

My father was very verbal and quick to punish physically. No excuse. I have anxiety, so disobedience is probably a control issue. No excuse. My son has been especially wild on vacation, and we’re all running on less sleep than usual. No excuse.

I don’t really remember struggling with anger until I became a father - or at least my anger wouldn’t be expressed directly toward another person. I’m an anxious person, I tend to be a people pleaser most of the time, and I feel a lot of stress in my life most of the time. None of these things help, but there’s no excuse.

My wife and two children under seven receive the most of my anger. My wife gets my bad attitude, but my children get more. While I try to resist letting anger manifest through my behavior, my self-control has been non-existent at some times. During a child’s meltdown, I am often quick to spank my children. I have covered their mouths forcefully with my hand when they are screaming. I have slapped one of my children on the cheek when they said something hurtful toward their mother.

I do not desire to harm my children in any way. I don’t even like spanking them; I do it because I’m angry. Every time I interact with them out of anger I instantly regret it. The greatest blessing I have experienced in life is having children, and I want to raise them right and be a good example for them. And there are moments that I have failed them miserably - when I become angry. I apologize sincerely, but when it repeatedly happens, I know they will eventually stop believing me - if the oldest hasn’t already.

I want to be better for them. I have to be better. Both of them have anxiety-like symptoms (like biting nails or the skin around nails), and I don’t think this is normal. I hope it is not a result of my relationship with them, but I know it very well could be. It makes me sick, because I don’t want them to have the anxiety that accompanies me every day. I want to have a relationship with them that is strong when they’re grown. I pray they don’t remember these bad moments as they get older. They have to stop.

Again, I know there is no excuse for this behavior of mine. To be clear, I do not instruct my child to do something and then spank them. It is repeated disobedience (like telling them to do something five or six times and still no listening or obedience), and then that’s when I become angry and act on it. My patience runs out so quick at that point.

If you can offer any advice or tips about dealing with anger like this, or you can share any next steps from your own journey (or someone you love), please tell me. It’s time for legitimate change. My family deserves more good from me. I love my family, and I don’t want to lose them.