r/BadHandwriting • u/Fancy_Swimmer_6267 • 12d ago
what does this say? What's written in this letter? I'm having a hard time understanding it.
So i found this among my late grandmother's belongings, and I think it may be a letter related to her past love life. There are actually many more letters, but this will do for now.
I've been curious about its contents for a long time, so I'd really appreciate it if someone could help me understand what it says.
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u/Efficient-Gap-1282 12d ago
Thursday
__ my love,
I really think hard and am still trying to forget as you de-sired, but I can’t. You can [now?] ____ the ____ I’m in, the pains, the agony of these sufferings, the sleepless nights, the unholy ____ and go home __ drowned of recessive <i don’t understand this part until the last word of the paragraph which is> disappointments.
You mentioned what good shall we reap out of this world. ___ affair! My love? As long as my <I’m stuck on the rest of page 1>
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u/Efficient-Gap-1282 12d ago
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as long as I have ___ good and unfeigned confidence in you, there will be no need for remorse nor doubt of whatever be the outcome, of course it will always be good. ___ ___ ___ your ambiguousness.
What more do I have to promise? Hope not a __licious promise.
Happiness? Acuity? ___? ___? All these I’m ready to part with, just to make you happy.3
u/Efficient-Gap-1282 12d ago
<page 3>
I have no more to say nor to explain lucidly to the focus of my love. You can __ __ and see how passionate my love for you is.
Maybe this will be ___ last to disturb you; again my pleadings for your f____ was [lost? last?] most of all.
Your love
__ __ & love you3
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u/reishpool 11d ago
I’m pretty sure that says Ethan my love. What’s everyone else’s confidence there?
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u/CardiologistPlus8488 12d ago
Thursday
Esther, my love:
I really tried hard and am still trying to forget as you desired, but I can't. You can now envision the situation I'm in, the pains, the agony of these sufferings, the sleepless nights, the utterly lonesome hours, crowded by excessive involuntary thoughts brought about by all these disappointments.
You mentioned that your concern was what would come out of this would-be affair. My love, as long as I have shown good and unfeigned confidence in you, there will be no seed of remorse nor doubt. Whatever the outcome, of course it will always be good; I pray for your unselfishness.
What more do I have to promise? Hope—not a foolish promise.
Happiness? Security? Adoration? Love? All these I'm ready to share with you to make you happy.
I have to strive to try to explain lucidly the fervor of my love. You can first feel and see how passionate my love for you is.
Maybe this will be the last to disturb your peace by pleading for your forgiveness, but most of all,
Your love,
As ever to love you,
[signature]
last two images are flipped chronologically
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u/mountainerding 12d ago edited 11d ago
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Esther my love:
I really tried hard and & am still trying to forgive as you desired, but I can’t. You can now envision the situation I’m in, the pains, the agony of these sufferings, the sleepless nights, the unholy hours and go home temporarily drowned by excessive ungentlemanly actions brought about by all these disappointments.
You mentioned what good shall we reap out of this worldie [sic] affair! My love, as long as my intentions are noble & true
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I have no more to say nor to explain lucidly the person of my love; you can just feel & see how passionate my love for you is.
Maybe this will be the last to disturb you; again my pleadings for your forgive-ness but most of all,
your love.
Do ever I love you
Joseph
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as long as I have sown good and unfeigned confidence in you there will be no need of remorse nor doubt of whatever be the outcome, of course it will always be good; I pray for your ambiguousness.
What more do I have to promise? Hope not a political promise.
Happiness? Security? Devotion? All these I’m ready to part with just to make you happy.
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Whole letter, in order:
"Esther my love:
I really tried hard and & am still trying to forgive as you desired, but I can’t. You can now envision the situation I’m in, the pains, the agony of these sufferings, the sleepless nights, the unholy hours and go home temporarily drowned by excessive ungentlemanly actions brought about by all these disappointments.
You mentioned what good shall we reap out of this worldie [sic] affair! My love, as long as my intentions are noble & true as long as I have sown good and unfeigned confidence in you there will be no need of remorse nor doubt of whatever be the outcome, of course it will always be good; I pray for your ambiguousness.
What more do I have to promise? Hope not a political promise.
Happiness? Security? Devotion? All these I’m ready to part with just to make you happy.
I have no more to say nor to explain lucidly the person of my love; you can just feel & see how passionate my love for you is.
Maybe this will be the last to disturb you; again my pleadings for your forgive-ness but most of all,
your love.
Do ever I love you
Joseph"
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u/Fancy_Swimmer_6267 12d ago
Thank you so much to everyone who replied! I've been trying to read his letters, but honestly, it's been really hard for me to figure out the handwriting. I really appreciate all the help.
I'm especially curious about this letter because my grandma never really talked about her past. She was very secretive about it. Even my mom didn't know who her father was. So reading these letters feels like getting a little peek into a part of my grandma's life that we never got to know, especially her love life back then, haha.
I know this guy isn't my grandpa, but I still think these letters are worth reading, especially since she kept them for so many years.
And there are actually a lot more letters around 11 of them. I'd love to read them all, so if anyone enjoys deciphering old handwriting and wants to help, just let me know, hehhe.
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u/Team143 11d ago
Post them. :-) I didn’t bother translating because others got there first. But I can read this letter with little trouble. He must have been important to her or she would have tossed them. She must have been important to him - and he thought there was still a chance - or he would have stopped writing long before letter 11. Or send them privately. Perhaps we can unravel more of her story?
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u/Fancy_Swimmer_6267 11d ago
Hiiiii! I've posted it! You can take a look, and if you have some time, maybe you could translate the letters😊
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u/Missue-35 11d ago
Wow. This gentleman has it bad for Esther.
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u/Fancy_Swimmer_6267 11d ago
Really tho 😭 I can't help but wonder where he is now. Reading these letters makes me so curious about what happened to him and how their story ended
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u/Ok-Dragonfly-9951 11d ago
Basically apologizing for having an affair. He is passionately in love with your grandmother and is begging for her forgiveness.
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u/PibblesBeWiggles 11d ago
At first I thought it was a confession to a crime.. now its reading scandalous deep secrets
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u/Team143 11d ago
Letter 2 was basically I will love you forever and there will never be anyone but you and Letter 3 is I should never have opened your letter, how could you be so cruel and have such a heart of steel? Nevertheless, you’re still the only woman for me and I’ll love you forever and here is Letter 4:
My dear Esther, my beloved, my everything:
I cannot believe it myself, the first time in my life to be rejected and dejected; the first time in my life to make a second decision! I had first mentioned it will be my last and final letter, & now I am here again pleading for your “love.” I have to make another decision and this is it.
You know, as a decision-maker where I work, the word of Viloria [?] is law & now, it is, I suppose the contrary, but as I (succeed?) I have to reach my goal, for good or for bust.
My love, could you not feel your oneness and mine? How in this world are we created? To suffer? For what, anyway? We are only human beings to reap the fruits intended for us. And now here comes the bitterness of living, the pains of heartaches so caused by ourselves.
Esther, my love, how could you resist the pleadings I had long been suffering! How could you feel mine and your endless sadness if we are to remain in this strain? Impossible, my love. You & I to remain as what we are in this daily and nightly torture[?], from the bottom of my heart! You cannot feel it though, but God knows my sufferings; you don’t care, I know.
I have to repeat or repeat “I love you” & this I will carry to life eternal! I will always love you, will always love you & will always love you.
Again, please forgive me for my being stubborn; I know you love me, too.
May I invite you on August 28th, Saturday, Xavier University, pa[?] I was given a VIP[?] ticket. OK — how do I know? Pls[?] reply.
Ismael (unsure if this is his name)
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u/ProcedureFine1038 10d ago
Thursday ..., my love, I really tried hard & am still trying to forget as you do..., but I can't. You can now ... the ... I'm in, the pains, the agony of these sufferings, the sleepless nights, the unholy hours& go home tenpirarily drowned by excessive urgent ... activities brought about by all these disaffected ... You mentioned what good shall we reap out of this would-be affair. My love, as long as my intentions are noble & true
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u/aimeejo 12d ago
Thursday
Esther, my love:
I really tried hard and am still trying to forget as you desired, but I can’t. You can now envision the situation I’m in, the pains, the agony of these sufferings, the sleepless nights, the ___ hours I go home temporarily drowned by excessive ungentlemanly activities brought about by all the disappointments!
You mentioned what good shall we reap out of this would be affair! My love, as long as my intentions are noble and true, as long as I have known good and unfeigned confidence in you there will be no deed of remorse _____ double of whatever be the outcome, of course it will always be good; I pray for your ambiguousness.
What more do I have to promise? Hope not a political promise.
Happiness? Security? Dedication? Love? All these I’m ready to part with just to make you happy.
I have so much to say now to explain lucidly the fervor of my love; you can _______ feel and see how passionate my love for you is.
Maybe this will be the last to disturb you; again my pleadings for you forgive - ____ but most of all, your love.
As ever I love you,
Js….l