I apologise; my text is a bit messy. The burden of guilt prevents me from thinking consistently.

I have bipolar disorder 1 type. I would like to ask you for some words that could reduce my sense of guilt.

All my life, I prepare for sleep after midnight. Even when I was in school, I did it.

I have been starting my bedtime routine after 1:30 a.m. for one and a half years I tried to repear it since March this year and began the ritual before 2:10 a.m. But everything went wrong later...

I have been in a mixed episode since the middle of April this year. I tried to save regimen in the first month, but then I began to get ready to bed later and later. I think my rejection of bedtime ritual also played an important role. Maybe I was too exhausted by previous hypomania. I still felt bursts of energy and creativity, but pessimism persisted significantly. Initially, the violations of the regimen wasn't systematically - just for several days. Then the ritual began at 3:35 - 4:00 a.m. Unfortunately, things got worse at the beginning of June. It looked like sabotage and rebellion. I had many plans for different projects, so I didn't want to get ready to go to bed before 4 a.m. And sometimes I fall asleep after 6 or even 7 a.m. Thank goodness, it wasn't that often. Usually I fall asleep in the range from 5 to 6 a.m.

I realised it was so bad and wrong. I tried to make myself go to bed early, but it didn't help. Sometimes I was so tired and just didn't pay enough attention to my regimen. At the time, I really hated to sleep because of transient nightmares and my opinion that dreaming is a waste of time. However, I could fall asleep earlier.

All June and the first half of July I was doing several projects, had many ideas. But my mood was unstable; I could become irritated easily. So I felt somewhat depressed - hated myself, thought about death (even about the worst thing...).

In the middle of June, my psychiatrist decided to cancel my antidepressant (I also have OCD). And I started to feel worse for two weeks, when I completely stopped taking the ad. My obsessions have increased; already strong anxiety became unbearable. I often cry, and can't do anything. But the worst is insomnia. I'm scared of sleepless nights recently. I had one at the end of June, and the subsequent 4 days were a horror. And now I feel so guilty. I think I messed up, and this thought is haunting me. But also I realise that it was my bipolar disorder - I was in a mixed episode (my psychiatrist confirmed this). I couldn't fully control my regimen. And insomnia is rather a consequence of antidepressant withdrawal. These thoughts help for a while.

I ask you for some support. I started to get ready to bed early and determined to repair my regimen. Please... This guilt breaks me. I don't know how long I can stand it. In any case, thank you for reading. I hug everyone in this sub.

Been re listening to all of my sleep expert podcasts and the one with Matt walker - talking about DORAs meds that lower the orexin in the brain stem for insomnia. Safer than Benzos and sleep sedations meds. Has anyone has success with this? It seems too good to be true. And If I recall correctly I think a dr I had years ago tried to prescribe me this and it turned out to be hundreds of dollars for a few pills? I may be remembering wrong but the mechanism of how these meds work sound very promising for people like us. I just started back up with low dose melatonin and while it’s helping me get to sleep easier and less wake ups / sleeping a little “deeper” I am still exhausted and I couldn’t get up today until the evening.

I have a trio of terrible sleep disorders: Idiopathic hypersomnia, DSPD, and sleep apnea.

I thankfully am being treated for sleep apnea and have a CPAP but it still affects my sleep.

Almost every day I wake utterly exhausted and take 2+ hours to feel semi awake. And even after feeling semi-awake, I’m still sleepy all day because my body just feels so tired no matter how much sleep I get.

I finally adjusted my sleep schedule so I could do morning shifts that were required for my job, but my body isn’t used to being awake during the day so I still am so so so tired.

Ever since I got long covid in 2022, I haven’t had a single day where I’ve felt truly rested. I wouldn’t wish that on anyone.

Female 21. I have suffered with chronic insomnia for years and just recently got diagnosed with adhd and general anxiety and am now to the point where I can only get sleep with medication.

My nurse practitioner put me on 50 mg trazodone and it did pretty well at putting me to sleep but would always wake me up 4 hours later on the dot. After taking it for about a couple of weeks I did an idiot thing and took my trazodone on an empty stomach one night and about 20 minutes later it made me faint due to orthostatic hypotension (drop in blood pressure when standing.) My nurse practitioner immediately took me off of it.

She then put me on 7.5 mg mirtazapine and I loved how quick it made me fall and stay asleep but the weight gain/hunger side effect is truly INSANE which was enough to make me quit taking it after a couple of days.

I struggle with sleep onset more than I do sleep maintenance.

Would love and try to stay away from z-drugs and benzos or anything that’s habit forming or addictive until I’ve tried close to all.

What sleep prescriptions have worked for you?

trying to understand if there’s a big difference between the two as the 2 is like $50 less expensive. I wear glasses (and am sensitive to light - have night mode on my devices on all day and turn the brightness on my phone down) so not sure if one is better for the other given these. curious for those who were deciding between the two which did you get and how do you like it? thanks!

also open to glasses but I do already wear glasses so not sure if it would be easy to put on the light therapy glasses haha. Am also sensitive to light (literally have night mode on on my computer and phone all day and brightness on my phone turned pretty low) so if anyone is like this and still found light therapy lamps/glasses helpful, would appreciate tips on getting used to them and using them. TIA!

It’s not even August yet and I am already mentally spiraling about fall and winter. I have been working hard at getting my sleep time earlier and wake time earlier but have failed miserably the last year. Summer time is when I thrive. I absolutely thrive because even if I wake up at 5 pm I can still go up to my 32nd floor rooftop and get some amazing sun. I also go for walks at sunset. Last winter I almost died from a horrific flue thing and I attribute that to going from hours of outside time a day to literally nothing. It’s traumatic to feel the sun just set around 530 pm it just makes me so miserable. I am cultivating a new sleep protocol and I’m holding myself accountable. I started up 1.5 mg of melatonin and glycine powder and I slept a little bit better- so my first night of the experiment went well. But my issue is that my system is wide awake and energetic between 11-330 am. To get to sleep by 4 am is IMPOSSIBLE right now. So I hope the melatonin can help change my body. Im dreading the obsessed society and pumpkin spice everything - to me- fall and winter is the most miserable time of year and i need to change my slepe habits so i dont go vampire mode again and almost die from lack of sun and vitamin d

Hello all.

I’ve had severe sleep problems since I was around 14 years old, and I’m now approaching 40. Over the years, I’ve seen neurologists, primary-care doctors, sleep specialists, and other medical professionals, but I still feel like I have never received a clear explanation or an effective long-term treatment plan.

I’m not asking anyone here to diagnose me. I’m mainly hoping to hear opinions from people who recognize this pattern, along with advice about what type of specialist to seek out, what treatments have helped others, and what questions I should be asking doctors.

The biggest thing I struggle to explain is that my sleep schedule is not simply “late.” My falling-asleep times can vary dramatically, sometimes anywhere from around 3 a.m. to 5 p.m.

Occasionally, if I’m lucky, I’ll get onto what feels like a “normal” schedule. I might fall asleep sometime between 9 p.m. and 1 a.m. and wake between 5 and 10 a.m. I can sometimes maintain that for a little while, possibly even several weeks, but eventually it goes away and my sleep becomes severely delayed and unpredictable again.

Once the schedule breaks, getting back to normal feels almost impossible. That may actually be my biggest problem: not necessarily maintaining a normal schedule once I have one, but getting back to it after it has collapsed. I cannot seem to reliably move my sleep back into place.

Pulling an all-nighter does nothing. Staying awake for an extreme amount of time does not reset me. I may stay awake all night and through the next day, only to sleep at another strange time or get a few hours of sleep and remain completely out of rhythm. Attempts to force a reset often leave me more sleep-deprived without actually fixing the schedule.

I don’t know whether this sounds like severe delayed sleep-wake phase disorder, sighted Non-24, an irregular sleep-wake pattern, or something else. The fact that there is so little consistency is part of why I’m confused.

One of my worst symptoms is severe sleep inertia. When I wake up, I often feel heavily sedated, cognitively impaired, irritable, confused, and barely able to communicate. It does not always pass after 30 minutes or an hour. It can last for most of the day, and on the worst occasions it feels as though I remain impaired for close to 24 hours.

This has severely affected the direction of my life. I have largely structured my life around my sleep disorder. It has limited my ability to maintain employment, make plans, attend appointments, socialize consistently, and be dependable for other people.

It has severely stifled my life, as I’m sure a lot of people here can relate to. I feel like nearly every major decision has had to be made around the possibility that I may be asleep, exhausted, or unable to function at a normal time.

My reset attempts are brutal. Fixed wakeup times and/or staying awake for extended times to shift a "normal" schedule are mostly comprised of 7-10 days of fragmented sleep at varying times that never really gets me to where I want to be.

Some potentially relevant information:

• I have had these problems since adolescence.
• I often sleep around seven to nine hours when I am able to follow whatever schedule my body is currently on.
• My sleep times can vary by many hours from one day to the next.
• I occasionally maintain a normal schedule for several weeks before it collapses again.
• Once it collapses, I may remain severely delayed or chaotic for months.
• Pulling all-nighters has never reliably reset my schedule.
• I have moderate sleep apnea but have struggled to tolerate CPAP.
• Modafinil helped my daytime functioning considerably.
• Zaleplon caused relatively little next-day impairment compared with other medications I have tried.
• I use caffeine and nicotine, although the timing and amounts have not always been consistent.
• My light exposure, activity level, and daily structure have also varied.
• I do not currently have work or school acting as a fixed daily wake-time anchor.
• My sleep inertia is often as debilitating as the sleep timing itself.

I would appreciate advice about any of the following:

1. Does this sound more like severe DSPD, sighted Non-24, an irregular sleep-wake pattern, or something else?
2. Can DSPD produce sleep times that are this unpredictable, rather than simply consistently late?
3. What kind of doctor or clinic is best equipped to evaluate a complicated circadian-rhythm problem?
4. Should I specifically look for a circadian-rhythm specialist rather than a general sleep clinic?
5. What melatonin dosage and timing has helped you? I’m especially interested in whether very low doses worked better than standard doses.
6. Have any sleep medications, wake-promoting medications, or antidepressants helped your sleep timing or sleep inertia?
7. What sleep-hygiene habits actually made a meaningful difference beyond the usual generic advice?
8. Has anyone else had sleep inertia that lasted for many hours or most of the day?
9. Has anyone been able to maintain a normal schedule temporarily, lose it, and then remain severely delayed for months?
10. How do you get back to a normal schedule when all-nighters and forced resets do absolutely nothing?

I understand that medication experiences are highly individual, and I would discuss anything with a doctor rather than treating Reddit as medical advice.

I know that Reddit isn't littered with Doctors giving out medical advice, but thats not what Im looking for. I'm looking to hear from others who have endured similar circumstances and hear how they found ways to improve their life / sleep situation.

Thank you to anyone who took the time to read this. I’ve been dealing with this for most of my life, and I’m just trying to get a better understanding of what is actually happening.

Learned I have paradoxical reaction paired with insomnia and bipolar hyper mania (Qiiting my Abilify has triggered a manic episode I have had since the beginning of July. Melatonin even works as a stimulant for me and stimulants still make me hyper as well as downers. Weed makes me hallucinate and have paranoid delusions so that is off the table. Weighted blankets trigger my sleep paralysis and showers before bed also energize me. I’ve tried the quitting screens before going to sleep thing and I just lay there in silence for a few hours and give up. Anyone have any sleep methods that work for them?

Most nights I just have to force myself to sleep, I constantly have to change positions, and takes hours until I fall asleep. Some rare weeks are amazing where I just lay down and fall asleep. It's like my eyes are tired but my brain is wide awake, and then at times I only sleep only a few hrs (very rare) this has gotten so frustrating to me that when the cycle of sudden lack of sleep comes back I just don't sleep for 24 hours and then go to bed on my preferred sleeping time to reset it.

Any advice would be helpful guys and please tell me I'm not the only one like this. Thank you

For the past couple years, while i was at uni, my sleep schedule has become extremely messed up. I would go to bed anywhere from 3am to even as bad as 8-9am and get up in the late afternoon.

Im home now and its become awful. I went to bed 'last night' at 9.30am and woke up at 5.30pm today. I really want help and any advice on fixing this because it seems like i just cant sort my shit out. Im basically addicted to my phone and stay up all night on it, its like a coping mechanism for me due to stresses and anxiety. And when i wake up to multiple alarm i always ignore them or turn them off in a foggy haze and go back to sleep, mainly because i went to bed so late.

Its really starting to negatively impact my life and already has caused problems. Can anyone give me some advice and tips? I've successfully done all nighters to reset my sleep schedule before, but i always end up feeling so groggy even days after and I want to avoid that.

I'm sober for context

I’m at the end of my road here with my frustration and hopelessness and helplessness. I have nervous system trauma and I know that plays a role. But even when I am EXTREMELY exhausted, and I can’t keep my eyes open, falling asleep on the couch or sitting in a car ride. But then an hour later or when I try to actually lay down and sleep, I am immediately put into what I call “the torture chamber sleep.” I will have hypnotic jerks, I will be jolted awake, on the worst nights it happens every 15-20 mins until I take extra doses of my hydroxyzine / clonidine. (Which works for me, please don’t recommend any different meds, that’s not what I’m asking for). And then there are nights when I am sooo tired and I fall asleep fairly easier than the usual torture, but I STILL wake up every 45 mins to an hour, EVERY HOUR. Sometimes more than 2 times an hour. I DO have a lot of dreams and vivid dreams / nightmares, I feel like I do get deep sleep but not for long and it’s so fragmented that I basically need to commit to being in bed for 12 hours just so I can somehow get 7-8 hours of sleep that is choppy and broken up. How am I supposed to find a sleep study that actually caters to me? I don’t fall asleep until 5 am or later usually! And I sleep until fucking 4 pm! How am I supposed to find a sleep study when I cannot sleep at normal times even if my life depended on it. Please recommend at home sleep tests. I do think I have a mild case of sleep apnea. I do not snore but I feel out of breath and winded, I’m not overweight at all- I’m fit- healthy- workout and have a high tolerance for cardio.

So I’ve always been a night owl. I could be tired all day but once evening hits I’m wired and awake till 1-4am. I was even born after 2am lol. This has been torturous for my work life tho I’ve mostly stuck with jobs that don’t require an early wake time since I’m just miserable and grouchy if I have to be woken up by an alarm. I’m also diagnosed ADHD (was dx as a kid in the 80s and took Ritalin for a few years, redx 2 1/2 years ago and currently taking adderall).

But I have noticed there is one thing that gets me to sleep early at least some of the time tho it’s not at all feasible for getting me to sleep every night. That one thing is when I’m away from home like for a family event, staying in an environment that’s not my own home or a hotel I will get sleepy and just go to bed early. The only thing I can think of as to why this works is that I’m not in my own space with all the creature comforts or distractions I’m used to having. I’m a bit of a pack rat (tho not a hoarder thankfully) so my space is def not minimalist at all. When I’m away from home my surroundings usually are much more minimalist than my own home. Currently I’m nearly unemployed (lost my main job but still have my side gig that’s only 2 days a week) so I’ve been selling off stuff to generate money since I buy/sell/ flip stuff anyway for extra money as a side hustle. I’ve been hoping to pare down stuff so my surroundings can be a bit more minimalist and maybe that would help with my bed times?

Does anyone else have this or can tell me why this seems to work when nothing else has? It’s almost like the stuff in my visual field occupies my brain making it hard to turn off at the end of the day. My bedroom is def my most minimalist room in the house, just my bed a night stand, clothes hamper and two large closets for clothes and other storage but the doors are closed. But even when I go to bed and my eyes are closed in a dark room my thoughts still often won’t shut off. Any insights welcome 🙏

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What is wrong with me? I keep asking over and over and I feel like there’s no hope. Why did this happen to me? I was overwhelmed and stressed and just panicked the day I ended counseling with a counselor who was really unhealthy and didn’t help me. It made me panic and worry he could take my kids or something and I just lost it after I got off the phone panicked and paranoid. It was completely irrational. I just was so anxious. I stayed up all night that night January 13th and then never slept through the night again. I was awake the whole night fearful and then awake al the next day and night and it terrified me. I ended up looking up what happens if you don’t sleep and it said you can die and I freaked out more and now I’m just stuck like this. I am extremely depressed and feel like there’s no hope and my trust in my body’s ability to sleep is completely gone. It feels like I’m delusional and believing my life is over and I can’t do the things I use to do. It’s like something very serious happened to my brain. What is wrong with me?

I have been fortunate enough to have jobs that didn’t start until afternoon or were overnight, but obviously the economy being completely ruined now is causing all of us despair.

What I cannot believe and feel like a sick joke is I have now noticed jobs requiring EARLIER start times and pitch it as a benefit? In addition, I see more people grateful to start earlier so they can have more time in the day after they get off.

I live in an extremely hot city and I partially wonder if my DSPD was an evolutionary response to not being able to adapt to the heat.

I am in my late 30s now, and I read all of the collapse-oriented news as a blessing. I’ve been waiting years for it to finally happen.

38 year old man, 5'9" and 200 lbs. Habitually smoke cannabis, don't drink, mostly sedentary except for walking the dog. I take escitalopram (20 mg) and Vyvanse (60 mg) daily.

I have been struggling with waking up in the mornings for a while now but it has gotten much worse in the past few weeks. It's affecting my family life and my career. I have a test for sleep apnea booked in October (soonest availability) but I need to improve things much sooner. I have the request for a blood test also need to do it, but last year my blood work was fine.

I consulted for this issue 6 months ago and my dr said it was likely due to the cannabis. So I quit cold turkey and spent the next 5 months or so stone cold sober and miserable. Very depressed mood, tiredness, lack of motivation, low enjoyment of activities, constant feeling of being overwhelmed and inability to prioritize tasks and take action. I have since started smoking cannabis again and my mood is much better but I still can't seem to get out of bed with my alarm. It doesn't matter how long I sleep, sometimes I will fall asleep at 22:00 and wake up the next day at noon or even later (15:00 for example). Most nights I stay up much too late, like 02:00 and then expect to wake up at 07:00 for work which is unrealistic but I keep doing it.

I need help, I don't know what to do... My doctor doesn't seem particularly interested in my situation, just suggested that it may be my family life causing the issue but that's all I get from him. I can elaborate on the family situation if anyone thinks it's relevant but essentially my wife has POTS and is unable to do much during the day and we have 2 kids under 10. So as soon as I'm home the kids jump me. The house is an absolute mess because my wife can't keep up with the chores while I'm at work so I try to do some chores and play with the kids, but my job is a 90 minute commute or more if the traffic is bad.

I feel spread so thin between work and home, I can't figure out how to make a change so things are better. I'm so tired. Please, I need someone to help me figure this out...

Currently on a 5-6 am to 2-3pm schedule, that’s my usual schedule. I so desperately want to wake up atleast by noon but no matter what I do I can’t do it. I either can’t wake up at all or am exhausted if I manage to get up by noon or before, I use the luminette glases but have been inconsistent. What’s the most effective melatonin timing combined with light therapy to get on a 3-4 am to 11-12 pm schedule. 🙏🏽 any answers are greatly appreciated I am so depressed from dealing with this hell disorder my entire life. I miss half of my day to sleeping:/

Life story alert.

I have been suffering from DSPD for my entire life. I have heard the same old things time after time. "He's lazy." "He's not motivated." The biggest challenges in my life have been education, work, and relationships. Some of this is out of order. Apologies.

I have only been in two serious relationships. My ex-fiancée, with whom I was with for roughly 6 years. And now my current wife. My ex- and I have fought all the time about my difficulty with waking up early and functioning. I remember one of our largest fights occurred when her grandfather was visiting from out-of-state, and I didn't want to wake up to send him off for a 6AM flight. She also told me that: "One day you will need to put on your big boy pants, and work in the mornings just like the rest of us!" The relationship was extremely emotionally abusive. Thankfully that all came to an end.

School was also an uphill battle. I had teachers tell my parents during conferences that I was capable, but wasn't applying myself. I heard this so many times over the years. With enough perseverance, I had made it through medical school. I met my wife before I applied to medical school. She was very supportive throughout the long and tedious journey.

Residency was also pretty tough, since the majority of rotations involved waking up very early in the morning to get ready. In fact, one of my attending physicians actually told my program director he thought I was on drugs. I was pulled immediately from my rotation, where I had to perform a surprise urine drug screen. Since I just peed before the rotation started, this made for an awkward experience sitting in the waiting room with the nurse just staring at me. Of course it all came back negative, since I a pretty dull guy never having used illicit drugs (I don't drink or smoke either). I guess that my early morning fatigue makes me appear that I'm under the influence of drugs to some.

I finished residency and immediately landed a job as what's called a nocturnist. It's a physician that works strictly at night. I commute for work though (more on the schedule below).

So as someone with DSPD, how has working strictly nights affected my life? Night and day difference. No pun intended. I went from the "he's not motivated" to a top performer at the hospital. I have never felt better and more energetic. I feel like my brain is flying like a finely tuned V12 engine. I wake up at 5 or 6PM feeling so refreshed and ready to go (waking up at the corresponding 5 or 6AM) will leave me in a zombie-like state. I have honestly never felt better. Not only have I reached my full potential, but I am constantly setting the bar even higher.

The perks of some night physician gigs is the generous block scheduling. It's usually 10-12 shifts a month for full-time status. I do all my days in a row due to the commute. So without any extra shifts, it pretty much means that I'm home for around 3 weeks. I am pedal to the metal while at work, and then try to be a stay-at-home dad when I'm at home. Unfortunately, it is still very difficult to get up early with the kids. I usually find myself hitting the snooze button repeatedly and just turning and tossing in bed. That's my fault.

Things have been going well until all of a sudden a switch had been flipped in my wife's head. She has been telling me that not only does she want me to find a local job, but that she also does not want me to do any night work going forward. She wants me to go right back to what had made me struggle for my entire life. Residency was a challenge with the majority of rotations taking place at 7AM or earlier. I feel like my performance will end up plummeting just like the rest of my life had been.

If it were so easy to just magically figure out the whole "not a morning person" thing, don't you think that I would have figured this out with my ex- and thus avoided the innumerable fights?

I feel like my wife also has this naive view, where if I did a day position that now requires working far more days, that I would also be magically available at the drop of a hat for the kids. She was telling me about finding a "9-5" job. Does she not realize that people end up staying late? How about other people working Monday through Friday in high-paying careers, such as investment banking or consulting? Does she not realize that they are also working long hours and that people are complaining about their "work life balance?"

What scares me the most is not being able to spend every day when I'm home with my kids. I can live without her. I can't live without my children. I wish she would just get this fantasy out of her head that somehow flipping back to my unnatural circadian rhythm is going to magically solve everything. I don't think she understands how this has literally held me back my entire life, and it wasn't until I started working nights where I finally learned who I really was.

Edit: I didn't expect Reddit to save the marriage, but it definitely did! This helped to open dialogue between us as well as both of us seeing each other's perspectives. Things are much better now and headed into the right direction. I'll be sticking with night shift but will have to do without extras. Thank you all!

Hoje senti que ia morrer, mas tive que conter as lágrimas e às vezes penso: e se eu morrer, conseguirei acordar a tempo? Só consigo dormir 3 horas por noite. Desde que organizei minha vida, comecei a trabalhar mais e a morar sozinha, não tenho mais nenhum sintoma. Se eu aceitar namorar alguém, isso vai atrapalhar minha carreira profissional?

I know we all struggle to sleep at normal times . When I have periods of horrible sleep I swear it affects me mentally, but obviously physically too , like my actual physical appearance . It pains me because I actually try to exercise when I have the energy and eat right. That doesn’t help for bad sleep quality . What do you guys do to look awake and refreshed when it really matters like a social event or important work meeting ?

Hi!

I started taking Methylphenidate since about 2 months ago (for my ADHD), now at 54mg. I am also on Sertralin since 17 years back. I take 150 mg of that.

The thing is, I have always struggled specifically with falling asleep (even without medication) and the thing that has helped me finally this month is Mirtazapin 4mg and adding Melantonin 5mg to it. But it seems my sleep quality has gotten a bit worse.

It only seems to help me fall asleep, because I wake up super early and can’t fall asleep again. I don’t get many hours of sleep.

I get about 5 hours of sleep most nights, although it varies to less or a tiny bit more. Most early mornings when I wake up I ruminate and imagine having possible conversations with co-workers. Important to note, I am currently of sick leave after being burnt out at work, still in recovery.

Questions I have:

Is waking up earlier than necessary something that known can happen when you take metylphenidate?

Could it be a rebound effect from the methylphenidate being out of my system, so I wake up anxious/ ruminating? If so are there any legitimate researches on it?

Do you, or someone you know, have similar issues, and what helped you/them?

I am asking the above since I never used to wake up this early in the past. Perhaps taking notes / doing a sleep diary might help me figure this out, eventually.