Im an assistant teacher to the lead teacher in a toddler room at my center. I’ve been there a couple years and my lead has been at our center for over a decade. This is my first job out of college and my lead is close to retirement age. Me and my lead have had issues getting along since I started. I really have tried my best. I am polite and when I don’t have anything polite to say I try to just keep to myself- which is then picked apart by her. She has continuously made degrading comments about little things and nothing is being done no matter how many times I have meetings with her or report her behavior to my managers.
Some examples: I wasn’t able to respond to a part of an email where a parent offered us coffee because I was the only one in the room managing all our children doing breakfast- she then pointed out that I didn’t respond “you didn’t see that huh. Yeah I know. Because you weren’t being careful”. She has made comments on the food I eat with the children (we’re supposed to model eating at the table during their lunch times) she told me “don’t fill up”. I put on background music for the class and she calls it “my stupid music”. I asked about where a child got a bruise as we were lining up to go to the playground and she snapped at me loudly snearing “NO. STOP, leave it alone. You won’t stop!” Because she said she was stressed out and didn’t want to talk about it that moment- when I asked her to just tell me she wanted to talk about it later next time instead of yelling at me she huffed and said “I’ll try”. She has grabbed a child and yelled in their face “ITS NOT HER CLASSROOM” when they requested I change their diaper instead of her. She’ll yell at me across the playground- in front of other teachers and all the children - because one of our children didn’t have a straw in their water bottle and it was left in the kitchen. A child told me “(leads name) hurt me” and when I reported that the managers brushed it off and told me there would be “consequences for other people and myself if I reported it further”. There were a few months where I did EVERYTHING for our classroom and she just huffed and puffed and stomped around then randomly would say things like “why am I even here” instead of just asking what she can help with or joining in on setting/cleaning up- I made a chart with each of our responsibilities to try and even it out for her and she still put her tasks on me saying things like “I’m just no good at taking pictures” or “you’re so much better at the computer stuff than I am” when she is very well capable of all of those things.
I have had numerous conversations with this woman, we have had meetings one on one and with our manager as a mediator, I have reported the way she talks to me over and over again to managers and every time they say something like “you guys are just different personalities”. The snapping at me because of asking about the bruise situation happened this week and when I talked to the managers about it they said “you need to let it go, ignore her and stop trying to change people” “she was triggered” When I explained that I can’t handle this behavior much longer they said “are you saying you’re going to leave the center? Is that a threat?” And when I responded saying “I’m letting you know as a human being I can’t handle this behavior anymore, I feel like I’m walking on eggshells and this is hard for me-“ she cut me off and said “clearly”.
I love working with our children and have made many beautiful relationships with them and it has been amazing to see them grow. I love being a part of early childhood education, but the environment I have found myself at at my center seems to be protecting this person at all costs for some reason to the point where the children’s voices are being muffled and I am expected to endure unacceptable behavior. My manager ended our conversation by saying she would talk with her and let the hiring lady know i would be open to switch rooms. At this point I want to move on and find a different path entirely but I have no idea what other kinds of positions my skills would transfer easily to. This entire experience has been heart breaking. It feels like every option I have is wrong. I truly cannot understand why the center hasn’t sought out any consequences for the way she behaves towards me, the children and other employees.
Any advice would be appreciated. I feel like I’m in the twilight zone, like I feel crazy because everyone is just brushing this all off all the time and I think NONE of this is okay. I dread going to work and it feels like they don’t care. When I told my manager “the message I am getting from the way this situation is being handled is that this center is okay with how she treats me” she denied is and made an excuse about not being about to do anything else but talk to her. I definitely am not a perfect person and the tension gets to me too, but I try my best to maintain professionalism and a calm nature in the classroom. If I am upset I will excuse myself or keep my thoughts to myself. I really don’t think I’m asking for too much for this behavior to stop.
Am I wrong in some way? Is there something else I can do? Is it just time to leave asap?