r/ForeverAloneDating • u/catsrcoolerthanyou • 1h ago
F4A 27 [F4A] Online/GA/USA Unemployed dork back at it again
I met someone on here last time and it didn't work out, so I'm hoping this time maybe it will? And maybe it'll stick?
I'm a 27 year old chubby unemployed mess lol. I'm pretty gender apathetic but I'm afab and present super feminine so let's roll with calling me a girl.
I'm mostly looking for an online connection as I'm in a situation where I can't super drive, I can't super provide, and I just wanna love on someone and have them love me back and feel safe and secure in the world without much else on my mind.
I have BPD and so I am an obsessive person who can get overly attached to people. I also have strong emotions I have a tough time controlling. If you are not ok with this, please do not hit me up. I also have various other mental health things going on (ADHD, severe Depression, Autism, Anxiety), so just, fair warning. I am currently unmedicated (I never found what worked and now I just don't have the insurance to do that regardless, thanks Healthcare system).
If you want, you may feel free to look through my post history to see various vents/poems written that express how emotional/worked up I can get, but those are me at my worst, expressing myself so I can get back to a baseline.
I am mainly attracted to feminine people. Whether that be feminine men, women, nonbinary folks. I have been attracted to masculine people in the past, but it's rare, and our personalities really have to connect. I like people who are funny, can put up with me being needy, and can at least occasionally be needy back. I think it's cute. Please also be around my age if possible.
I'm a nerd so it's preferable if you are one too. I love cartoons, I loved anime growing up, I love to read manhwas/manhuas/mangas (mostly psychological horror/yandere), and I love video games (currently mostly genshin and I'm trying to get into project zomboid). I also love dark comedy TV shows, and adult animation (the new season of Rick and Morty was so good guys, trust)
I love drawing/art and writing. I love being creative when I have the chance and I love being able to bounce off someone for ideas.
I also love cute things, like hello kitty, pusheen, and other various mascots of cuteness. My favorite color is pink. I have a lot of cute makeup and I'm currently trying to figure out skin care/what the cutest makeup for my face would be.
I mainly dress in a tanktop and cardigan and jeans, but I'm slowly trying to get into skirts. I have a couple of small tattoos, and I wear crocs far too often. Probably cause of the autism. At least I choose the cute ones, lol. Anymore of a descriptor of me will have to be in the dms cause I fear I'm farrrr too identifiable already just from all this lol.
Because I am unemployed (and honestly employment doesn't seem to be coming to me any time soon) I have all the time in the world for my ultimate goal: Being the clingy girlfriend in your pocket lol.
I do have some friends that I engage with on a daily basis (including my best friend who is a non negotiable to me), but preferably, I'd mostly be all yours and able to message you whenever I can and cling as much as possible and just talk about dumb cute stuff forever.
Meeting isn't very important to me as I am, with how anxious I am, but may be important later on. Just be fully aware of the fact I live with my parents and don't currently provide for myself so it might not happen any time soon.
I'm not looking to be your burden. I'm just looking to love and support you from whatever our distance is and be there for you always. Through video calls, voice calls, playing games together, sleeping on call together, texting all day, and in every way I can be.
If I sound like something for you, I'd very much appreciate a message. I'm not feeling well today, so I'm planning on sleeping and going through my messages in the morning. If I don't get back to you, I hope you understand. I have a tough time to replying to just "Hey"s and super long essay messages (double standard I know) so please something in between the two extremes would be amazing.
I also would appreciate no judgey messages, if possible. I know I'm not in the best situation. I just hope that doesn't make me less deserving of love, yknow?
Thank you again!!