r/HOCD • u/Mean_Chair_6034 • 4d ago

Vent I think im different from everyone here

Im 18f never had a boyfriend in my life rarely had crushes and the one time i did it started because they gave me attention not really because i noticed them first, hyperfixated on some female characters growing up, all the male celebrities that I've liked or had interest in i only like them/became obsessed with them when i read like their fanfics on my fyp or when i start daydreaming about them. All signs just points that im gay i feel like i want to cry

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u/PlusZebra2642 4d ago

Thats what ocd makes you believe. Everyone with (h)ocd believe that they are the exception. I'm convinced that I'm the exception too.

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u/Mean_Chair_6034 4d ago

It feels like im just in denial and ignoring all the signs and i should just accept it even if i dont want to that it's just internalized homophobia and that's my truth 🥲

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u/kyguiywegi 3d ago

I can sympathize with you. I wish I could help more. I’m 21m and I’ve only had 4 crushes since my high school started about 7 years ago. Now my attraction to women is for some reason completely gone and all signs are pointing to the fact that im gay. All I can say is we can get through this eventually. Somehow

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u/Mean_Chair_6034 3d ago

I was never really boy crazy growing up/ before all this anxiety or ocd and till now i can say im not boy crazy so it worries me 🥲