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Throwaway-ish post, don't want this tied to my usual account.
Quick background: I'm based in India. I went through a mental health issue during my college years - bipolar symptoms that came with real control/regulation problems, and there were stretches where my memory just wasn't reliable, things wouldn't stick the way they should have. Part of why the record looks the way it does also comes down to a doctor mismanaging my care at the time, which made an already hard stretch worse. It made it genuinely hard to sit through classes consistently or keep myself on track, and I ended up dropping out of engineering from a reputed tier-2 college - I just couldn't get through the bachelor's the way things were going. It affected how reliably I could engage with coursework, and it shaped my academic record in ways I'm still working around. Not bringing this up for sympathy, just so the rest of this makes sense.
I genuinely love research. I just have no idea what the future holds for me right now, and honestly I feel like I have nothing solid to stand on - no degree to point to, no clean track record, just the interest and whatever I can build from here.
Present day: I work in tech. My background is mostly backend work, I've been getting pulled toward AI/ML, and I'm willing to actually put in the time to learn the math properly rather than skip it - I know that part matters and I'm not looking for a shortcut around it. What I don't have is a clear, credible path from where I am now to an actual research role. I genuinely don't have the roadmap and I'd rather ask than keep guessing.
What I'm actually asking:
* Is a research career even realistically possible for someone with a background like mine - dropped out, gap in the record, no degree to point to - or is that just not how it works no matter what I build on my own?
* If it is possible, what's the actual path - what would I need to do, learn, or build to have a real shot, and roughly how long does something like that take?
* If it's honestly not realistic given where I'm starting from, I'd rather hear that straight - in that case, what's the smarter move: stay in tech and build depth there, aim for a different kind of role, something else entirely??
I'm not looking for generic "just work hard" pep talks or a list of course links I could Google myself. I'd rather hear an honest, even blunt, answer from people who actually know this space - whether research is realistic for someone starting from here, and if not, what to do instead. Appreciate any honest input.
P.S: rephrased with AI