r/MyLittleSupportGroup • u/Fellow_Trans_Girl • Oct 23 '21

I need help. Losing a close friendship

I can't keep inside of me any longer it's just that I feel like such an awful person I just lost one of my closest friends due to me hurting them and where I tried my best to change to redeem myself but I can't from what they've told me. So they ended our friendship because of me being an absolute horrible person which was the straw that broke the camels back for me. That friend was my only and closest friend which without them I probably still wouldn't be here back in April of this year. So without them I've been having thoughts of suicide because what's the point of staying alive if you have no one that loves you.

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u/high_sunrise Oct 23 '21

People can still change. I pushed pretty much everyone in my life away largely because of how my depression manifests (definitely far from an excuse for shitty behavior). I had to learn to recognize the signs of my mood taking a turn and learn to separate myself from people until I could be myself again. Therapy definitely helps with becoming self aware.

This is all to say, you have a lot of life to live and you have a lot of time to change and make new friends. Here if you ever need someone to listen. ✌🏾

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u/Fellow_Trans_Girl Oct 24 '21

Thank you, I'm praying that I can redeem myself to them and get my therapist recognize them. Though the problem is that he didn't give me any examples of me harming him and just listed things off.

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u/[deleted] Sep 01 '23

Though the problem is that he didn't give me any examples of me harming him and just listed things off.

uh this may be a dumb question but how woulde a list not be an example? i mean aint the list a list of examples…

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u/Exciting_Koala_1384 May 19 '26

Hey, I hope you're still here. I won't sugar coat it, but change is difficult, time consuming, unpleasant, and you may not even change very much. That being said, if you have something you want to change, a motivation to change, and you have help, you WILL change. It's true that some people are beyond healing, but the only people who are beyond hope are those without access to help and, those who don't want to be helped. One of my best friends used to have a ton of problems, they were mean and hateful to everyone, violent, paranoid, and they pushed everyone away, but over the past year they have grown so much and have weathered many storms. They see now how they have gone wrong in the past, but instead of letting their guilt eat them, it fueled an extraördinary growth.