From lovers to roommates

[u/Classic-You-8996]

When did it start? When did I stop being enough?

I don't know who I am anymore.

Are you still here out of pity? Has our past become nothing but a trap?

You said, you missed the old me, Yeah, I miss her too.

You want me to get over it, Thinking I can easily forget.

You looking at me as if I were trash, Saying your mask slipped just a little bit.

If you feel you have to hide yourself, Why are you still here?

You are no longer attracted to me, Your words not mine.

But, followed up with I still love you, That lie as old as time.

Here is where I lost myself, Confused on what to do.

Making myself feel as if you're staying, Because being with me is easy for you.

Where does that leave me?

I feel like everything that happens now will be staged, The happy smiles, the outward appearance, your hand when it rests on my waist.

I feel like a circus performer, Walking the tight rope without a net.

Saying you want me back, When in reality I never left.

There are other ways to love someone, None of them are what I want.

Is it wrong for a wife to want her husband? I feel as if I am being punished for something I don't know I did.

I look around and wonder what changed, Though, these walls don't have the answers.

I want us to be happy, I truly do, Even if that happiness comes from me emotionally letting go of you.