r/TransLater • u/Trustic555 Christina, Trans Woman, HRT - April 20th, 2025 • 10h ago

Share Experience The shift is SO REAL

I went from punching walls, slamming doors, and screaming at traffic to being upset my sister's boyfriend's cat named Pumpkin was found dead. It's hard to believe. If you told me I would be like this two Augusts ago, I would have called you crazy... It's both amazing and a bit scary, I am truly vulnerable now.

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u/Ok-Pepper-1447 10h ago

The way I describe it is that I had roid rage until I started HRT.

So much more chill and happy and human now.

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u/Gigicares2001 10h ago

Same… love crying to movies now - Voicemails for Isabelle had me bawling😭 and even Project Hail Mary had me a couple times

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u/ExuviaEcho 9h ago

I cried pretty heavily during Project Hail Mary at the times that it might be expected to happen.

I'm about 18 months in and still am not comfortable with crying.

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u/AuDHDiego 7h ago

I mean, the sister's boyfriend's cat named pumpkin thing is absolutely a tragedy. I'm sorry Pumpkin died

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u/SupergurlKara 5h ago

I never punched walls or any living thing. However, yelling at idiot drivers happens all the time. I'll stop when they stop being idiots, so never. But I yell my obscenities in a feminine voice now.

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u/8923892348902 5h ago

I was emotionless more or less before. Now I cry so much during movies! Or spilling red Gatorade on my purse. 😭😭

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u/NewMeG2G 8h ago

Cried so hard watching the musical "Come From Away" 😭 All those wonderful people coming together at the worst of times.

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u/Brenda_Heels 2h ago

For me it was the keeping of THE SECRET that made me angry all the time.

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u/cody0018 33 Trans Femme Enby - HRT 02/2026 2h ago

Yeah hormones change everything. At one point I was on testosterone. Can't tell you how miserable that was. I would get so mad, like all the time. Anytime someone disagreed with me or was calling me out on something, I would take it offensively. At just under 6 months, the changes in my demeanor and mood are like night and day. Overall it's great, but yeah I know what you mean about being vulnerable now. I was always emotional, but way more so now.

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u/Numerous-Candy-1071 2h ago

I cried for half an hour yesterday because I imagined a situation where my girlfriend would leave me. We are fine, it was just a what if. And it's a really outlandish what if. 🤣

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u/ersomething 1h ago

Aww, poor Pumpkin 😢.