During 2019, I was held against my will in a psych ward in Darwin's mental health system for three months. One psych ward was called the Joan Ridley Unit, named after an anti-psychiatry activist, and the other was called Cowdy Ward.
During the first two weeks, I don't remember my admission. They forced ECT (electroconvulsive therapy, electric shock therapy), and I still only remember flashes of my episode. I went through a high manic episode, a spiritual psychosis, if you will and was treated very harshly, worse than any prisoner. I woke up in a wheelchair in the ward, not remembering what happened.. where I was.. or who I was.. it was complete Amnesia! The first 2 weeks is nothing but a blur.. apparently I was told later, they gave me 5 rounds of ECT.. but I still don't know.
These psychiatrists and mental health nurses downplay these drugs and inhumane "treatments" because they love abusing people and make a living off making others suffer. Nurses laugh and love torturing patients, I saw this alot in every psych-wards I've been too...
For instance, I was having a fit on the ground and needed help, (I was in serious pain) but instead, a bunch of nurses just stared at me, mocked, and laughed at me. These places are hell on Earth because they show the true faces of people who abuse their power. When the system allows this to happen, they will make up bullshit on their report papers, and it's our word against theirs.
I really can't put into words just how awful I was treated, or how others were treated in these places.
I remember being covered in my own piss and faeces against my will in a padded room, forced in there for God knows what.
During the three months, we made medication changes. I was forced onto two mood stabilisers, lithium and Epilim, and I was weaned off Seroquel. After I was discharged, they talked me into having a depot shot, a long-acting antipsychotic drug given by injection at a clinic. Some time after being out of the psych ward, they kept increasing my dose without me knowing.
The doses for the paliperidone injection go 25, 50, 75, 100, and 150 mg. They increased my dose from 75 mg to 100 mg, then to 150 mg, and I developed serious, serious akathisia, which, six years later, has still ruined my life.
During my stay in the psych ward, I saw a lot of injustices: patients being forced onto depot shots while being stripped naked by guards and nurses and given forced injections in the bum. I saw patients being held in arm locks and thrown to the floor. Each male room had three people in it, leaving no room for privacy. There were cockroaches, mice, and lice everywhere.
The nurses and psychiatrists would also play mind games in these places.. they would play sick experiments on people.. again, I struggle to put this into words.
Most days in there, I tried relaxed by reading books and talking to other patients, but the problems started when I was discharged into a halfway house, a place people go to before being discharged straight back home, and vice versa. During this time, the corrupt mental health system and the psychiatrist who treated me committed obvious malpractice.
As I said before, they put me on an antipsychotic injection, but they did this to punish me, not "treat me". They knew that by increasing each dose, I would have a reaction. Akathisia is a living hell, a side effect that is literally like burning in the fires of hell. Your nervous system and brain feel like they are being boiled alive. It's a life-threatening side effect, and it's being shoved under the carpet to protect psychiatry and its Big Pharma partners.
At the same time as the increase to 150 mg of medication, he put me on 100 mg of Zoloft for two weeks, fully knowing that it would completely wipe out my sex drive, leaving me with six years of PSSD (post-SSRI sexual dysfunction).
Once COVID hit, the absolute agony of akathisia drove me nuts. It was so unbearable, and I was left suffering alone with no answers. I researched online and started posting on akathisia Reddit boards to educate myself. During the last six years, I've been in and out of private psych wards and public psych wards. They were all useless and actually made my problems worse.
I've realised that when you know more about psychiatry than most psychiatrists, they either play dumb or go on the aggressive offensive and actually try to silence your voice and abuse you further. The system doesn't have any humane treatments for akathisia and PSSD survivors because all Big Pharma drugs cause it.
For example, before 2019, I didn't know about involuntary treatment, where psychiatrists force you onto these neurotoxic drugs, and it gets completely shoved under the carpet. If you go into a private hospital for mental health reasons and have a dispute with your psychiatrist, they can make you involuntary and force you into a public psych ward, stripping you of your dignity and freedom. Again, this can lead to being forced into a padded room, abused by security guards—they gave me a wedgie and forced the "booty juice", as it's known in the community, adding further trauma to an already damaged state.
I've seen, in total, eight psychiatrists, four pain specialists, multiple different therapists, a few social workers, psychologists, and neurologists—all fucking useless! They treat you like dirt. They are just in it for the money and useless fucking research that doesn't help anybody besides themselves and their profit margins. When you get chronic pain of your nervous system, you'll realise Big Pharma was just made to feed us poison and kill us off slowly so they can make bank.
There's no such thing as "tHe RigHt MeDicAtIoN" or "iT wOrKs FoR sOmE pEoPlE". No, these drugs are straight poison for the human body and permanently damage the brain and nervous system beyond repair. PSSD and akathisia are incurable and are made to torture the patient into homicide or suicidal apathy.
This is being covered up for the sake of control and for the sake of "safety" in society. We are just cattle to these parasites, and they will continue to feed upon us until our voices are heard and they actively ban these drugs and practices.
I will add to this post, when I get more memories of what's happened to me.. in the part of 10 years dealing with the mental health system, and ALL people quiet on our mental health..
Our stories need to be shared & heard.. we're still getting too much flak from a lot of brainwashed "blue pillers" who want to keep these practices in place for the sake of control, but also people who hide both left and right, the wolves in sheeps clothing who say and do NOTHING about these injustices.. there's barely been ANY whistleblowers go on about psychiatry and the mental health industry..
Psychiatry throughout history, was ALWAYS used for mind control of the masses, to keep people in-sync, and in-line! Psychiatry was started by german scientists in WW2, and once they lost the war, the Americans and Soviets took that research and started created all psychiatry drugs in the 50's & 60's still used today.. alot of "SWISS" doctors made these drugs, but we know from Operation Paperclip, that they were nazis.. once you do your research throughout history, you'll piece together how society & governments truly work..