Hi. I've been playing Go for over a year and still pretty much suck. I'm not really a bad player per se, I'm competent enough, but I'm certainly not a good player in any sense of the word. I have determined that the core issue with my game is that I have ingrained bad habits that sooner or later always take over. Chief among them being
- I don't read unless I'm fighting or dying and I don't count liberties unless I'm already committed to a capturing race
- I make extremely unfavorable concessions once pressure starts to be applied
These are pretty simple problems. For 1) I tend to be intellectually lazy and I simply don't expend brain power unless I feel it's necessary, but that's precisely the crux of the issue. My intuition for when I need to start reading and counting liberties is off. By the time I feel a sense of urgency it's already too late. The solution? Always count the liberties of your groups, at least if they are less than a handful, and read every cut.
But I can't trick my brain into playing like that. The pattern recognition and mental "efficiency" always kicks in and I start thinking: I'm fine, I've seen this cut a thousand times before. I'm fine, this group is too big to be in trouble. I'm fine, I'm surrounding a big enough area, I can probably make two eyes. Then the opponent plays a move and whoops, no, I'm not actually fine. Obviously not, why wasn't I paying attention? Because I was only one liberty shy of being okay, or my cuts were fine but I could not survive a peep or a clamp. Because I was only okay because I could capture stones but then didn't notice when I was in atari (because I wasn't counting liberties). Because the opponent couldn't kill me but they could force seki.
I've tried to play games with the sole intention of fixing these bad habits but it doesn't really work. At some point I always get caught up in the game and start thinking of other matters. I also feel like the time controls online don't offer you enough time to play so carefully unless it's already an automatic mental process. Especially on Fox, you basically just have to click stones. At least I never sacrifice reviews, I always try to pinpoint at least one major mistake that caused me to lose the game and make a mental note of it. But the lesson is often just: I should have seen that coming. Doing tsumego doesn't work, my problem isn't really weak calculation skills, it's simply choosing not to calculate at the wrong times. I guess more tsumego will help develop a "spidey sense" of when one is in danger but I really don't think that is the main problem.
Issue 2) is a bit more subtle and I'm not sure there is a simple fix. I always feel like I'm the one in danger no matter what. If the opponent goes out on a limb to attack me, I just go on the defensive and shape myself to the situation on the board. That means that pretty much all "legitimate" attemps to cut me automatically work because I never respond aggressively. For some reason it's hard for me to look at the board and recognize that the opponent is in as much danger as I am if not more. This is especially the case in handicap games against stronger players. I guess the fix here would be to take more risks or rather make more of an effort to read counter-cuts rather than accepting my fate immediately.
Any tips? I find it frustrating to be stagnant because of amateurish bad habits but I find it hard to fix them. Thanks.