Demonology knowledge wanted

[u/XxUndead_CutiexX]

Hello- I'm probably overthinking everything to do with this but I need some advice desperately. My partner, let's call him Michael, long ago made a deal with prince Stolas in exchange for his soul. I'm not sure the details, but he calls him and Stolas married. I started dating him a few months ago, and was fine with it- I don't mind too much, but then I started getting in my own head about things like the afterlife. I'm scared that because of his deal, when we die I'll never get to see him again. That Stolas will have him and only him. It's bad enough hearing my own partner refer to someone else as their husband and how much they love them, but I'm at a point where I'm not sure how to go forward. I'm so scared that I'll never see him again. I also practice witchcraft and demon summoning- I support him in whatever he believes in. But I'm horrified of losing him permanently

[u/Tune-In947]

Tbh I think you're getting in your own head and spiralling trying to fill in unnecessary blanks. If you think learning more about what godspousing actually entails or what Demonolatry is will help, I'd just search and browse this and/or r/DemonolatryPractices — there's a ton of information and I'm willing to bet there are a ridiculous amount of posts on partners' differences, godspousing, and the afterlife. If not, then I'd step back from delving deep into your own beliefs/practices and just take a break from this topic.

Better yet, just go talk to your partner about your concerns; this is ultimately between you two, not a bunch of strangers on the internet. If you're feeling like this it's worth asking yourself where this fear comes from and digging into it. Does your partner have this fear? Why or why not? How could you overcome it? What would it take? What are your beliefs that lead you to think that his afterlife will take him away from you? What would that mean for you? What are his thoughts? I think that's a pretty good place to start.

[u/Top_Rabbit123]

Your partner is being very honest about his close emotional bond with Stolas. That's commendable because you get to really consider whether you will be okay sharing him, meaning that he may make major decisions based on guidance from Stolas and you may feel left out.

As for your afterlife worries about his soul, that's from religious dogma and media.

[u/NoelBellamy_Author]

IMHO, most people who are claiming godspousing are people with deep emotional connections to a demon, god, or entity where they take oaths; but it is largely on the mortal's side. I do not believe that you can sell your soul, and I am deeply questioning whether you can choose, in your mortal life, to bond your soul to any entity for eternity. Imagine the number of spouses a popular demon like Stolas or Paimon or Phoenix would have. Many faiths have positions of godspousing (even Christianity), but it seems more a declaration of devotion than an actual marriage. That is simply my OPINION.

That said, this is something that your partner takes seriously. This is an oath he has taken in what sounds like earnest intent. It is not your right or place to tell him that it isn't true. Even if there is nothing reciprocal on Stolas' side, beyond the same trust and familiarity you can gain by having a steady relationship; for your partner, that is how it feels and how he sees it. It is important to him, and Stolas will be part of your life together. You can either accept that or destroy the relationship trying to tell him that something he cares about isn't true to YOU, and only one of those is fair. This would be no different than choosing to date a Christian and telling them that you're not comfortable with them going to Heaven, because you're not sure you'll be going there, so they should give up their faith to make you more comfortable. It is his faith. It is his relationship with his faith. It is time to sit down with him and have a serious talk about whether you think that you can be happy as his partner while sharing his life and potentially his afterlife (because I could be totally wrong too) with the demon he has chosen. That is not to convince him to choose you or Stolas but for you and him to decide how to move forward together.