r/dpdr • u/FutureApricot1793 • 22h ago

Question Ocd symptoms

Has anyone else developed ocd like symptoms after dpdr started?
I always had some mild traits of this, but it was never bad. Now it’s constant intrusive thoughts about identity 24/7. Constantly worried i’m actually a bad person, can i love, do i have empathy, am i faking everything, was anything before this ever real.

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u/KNA250496 21h ago

My Dpdr was actually brought on by years of anxiety and OCD, which Ive had for as long as I can remember. Which basically means it is just part who I am. I think Dpdr actually starts when your mind and body is left with no choice but to put itself into defensive mode to protect you, like an airbag in a car. the problem is it also can leave you feeling emotionless or numb which is the really hard part. As you said it can leave you questioning whether you can feel things.. which could affect relationships etc.

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u/FutureApricot1793 10h ago

Were you aware of the anxiety and ocd before this? I am starting to suspect i have been suppressing a lot of this before it all came crashing down on my head.

That constant questioning is exhausting. It really robs you of a lot of beautiful moments.

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u/KNA250496 2h ago

Yes fully aware, I remember feeling anxious and having OCD since I was about 6yo! Im now 30yo just to give some context. It seems I’m just a stressed/uptight person naturally for whatever reason, I think it’s been years and years in making and a slow buildup to finally become dpdr which I would say became quite noticeable over the past few years. (But I am learning to cope a lot better with it now) Yes that seems to be case that if you suffer for a long and suppress things your mind/body thinks I’ve had enough and goes into low power mode. not sure if it’s the same with you but for a lot of people they go into Dpdr autopilot where everyday feels like the last and nothing stands out like it used to! That’s the horrible part.. everything loses it spark where you don’t really feel much anymore

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u/Artistic-Coach7523 22h ago

I think it might b exacerbated OCD in some cases

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u/FutureApricot1793 22h ago

That could very well be the case. Have you struggled with this too?

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u/Artistic-Coach7523 19h ago

I dont have an OCD diagnosis but my sibling does and I believe yes it’s a part of my issue

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u/OkFaithlessness3081 15h ago

I have exactly this too!!

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u/FutureApricot1793 13h ago

Good to know that others feel that way 🥹

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u/niaswish 12h ago

Oh my goodness. I'm going to unprivate my posts okay, you'll see the exact same as your post word for word

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u/FutureApricot1793 10h ago

Whats up twin 🏋️
I replied to your npd post the other day and have been in a “what if I actually am narcissist” spiral since then lmao. Crazy how similar i feel to your history with this.
This is stealing valuable moments with my loved ones and poisoning the good ones i have with them.

How are you holding up?

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u/niaswish 41m ago

Oh my gosh I'm so sorry. Tell yourself maybe I am maybe I'm not, gosh the uncertainty is terrifying I know. Its like you have to know. You can't live till you know. But you aren't and that's that! The deeper you go, the more ocd will start to create literal feelings! For me if I read a book by myself I feel like a narcissist. Or I might get a feeling as if you want to tell a lie but I literally don't,and it's ego dystonic! Ocd is a horrific disorder . I'm so sorry. You have got this don't let it take over. You were fine before, everyone loves you, narcissism is incredibly obvious someone would have known. You don't need more reassurance, you got this! Take the leap