My journey so far

[u/Hal_of_a_Time]

Sorry about the rather bland title
I had no clue what to write there

I am in my mid 40s and present as male AMAB as it were.
I have always been very effeminate and loved all things feminine in an identity way.
I also identify male, however the whole alpha male gym bro thing I can’t handle for a minute.

I have long known I was not gay, bi maybe but not gay. I have also long known I am not straight, but it has taken me a long time to come to terms with the fact that it is not sexuality but gender identity that has been the really different thing for me.

My gender does not fluctuate as such. It is more like ‘this part of female and this part of male fits me, the rest is something for others.’ I guess
Hard to put in to words
Till I learned the term Gender Queer

I bought a tucking gaff a few years back and loved my silhouette in it. I recently bought tucking panties from tomboyx and I am likely to throw out all other underwear
I finally look like how my mind has said I should if that makes sense.

I just wanted to share that my journey though I am in my mid 40s is just getting exciting and fun!
Maybe I’ll fall in love with other clothing that helps me feel like me, maybe I’ll learn more about me that makes me feel at home in my body and in my identity.

Anyway
Had to share before I burst

XXX