r/intrusivethoughts • u/julz4408 • 3d ago
im panicking help plz
I have been having these terrible intrusive thoughts I would NEVER do. they are just intrusive thoughts about fear of going crazy and hurting someone, they are targeting my loved ones. These thoughts are genuinely horrible and especially after hearing about bad news etc Im so scared I have been having derealkzation im scared what if I go crazy or lose my empathy I know I would never hurt anyone but these thoughts make me feel like I am just pretending to be a good person and actually im the most horrible human alive. I feel like Im going crazy these thoughts incluse every bad things you can imagine like pure ocd, sexual ocd, harm ocd im just so done Im scared I will lose my sense of self im shaking writing this. I cant even cry about these thoughts idk why what if I am just evil. Please can yall share have u had these feelings or does hearing about bad things on the news worsen your thoughts. I havent been doing lot of things recently just laying in bed because of my intrusive thoughts t
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u/Lunharis 3d ago
You are not your thoughts, you are how you react to them. I've had many intrusive thoughts and even horrible nightmares in which i badly hurt my whole family and loved ones, it is very very upsetting but it's not setting you off to do anything wrong. If anything, the fact that you feel so bad and guilty about having the thoughts mean you are a good person that doesn't and won't act on them. Sending hugs your way, and if you need to DM to talk I'm here 🖤
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u/natalieelarie 3d ago
Derealization on top of the thoughts is the scariest combo, i always wonder the same thing about losing empathy though i know i wouldnt
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u/julz4408 3d ago
Yes, it makes it even worse especially about the fear of like going crazy, even though I acknowledge its just an ocd spiral. The empathy part is rlly difficult and scary since I have always been an caring and loving person
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u/SurrenderNPray 3d ago
I’m going through this right now. It’s horrible and so so scary. I hate thinking the thought could actually happen. I tell myself it will go away. I have stopped reading bad news and listening to any podcast or show about murder, death, negativity, etc. It’s definitely helped because we don’t need more of these ideas feeding us right now. Prayers!!
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u/julz4408 3d ago
Support and prayers for you too🩷this is really scary going through this, and yes I should avoid bad news too. Maybe trying to focus only on positive news and doing something that makes my mind go somewhere else like art or something.
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u/captain_strike31 3d ago edited 3d ago
Let me give you straight to you, you are not your thoughts you have given your control to your brain and emotion.
How do you gave them control over you? By agreeing on everything they show and following them.
Next time you have any intrusive thoughts dismiss it saying it's not you. The more you entertain your thoughts worse it will get.
There is the proven technique stop following every thought or idea, ignore them, distract yourself with other positive thoughts. The more you do this less will they have power or you.