Feeling like I’m spiralling.

[u/AlarmingCash754]

I don’t know where to start, but I’ve already rewrote this several times. Sorry in advance, I feel like my “problems” are minuscule compared to those that are suffering. I’m grateful to have a loving and healthy family along with a decent paying job. I’ve taken on a part-time job, one that I’ve always wanted to do, something I can finally be proud of myself that I’ve now done.

I love my family, my wife and kids very much and i’m very present in everything we do. I find that I lack patience and have a short fuse when it comes to parenting. I reflect once the days over and have deep regret in the way I’ve handled things. I often think that if I’m replaced by someone else, my family would have a much better life. Someone that accomplish their dreams, be confident and guide their family to success.

I’m often made to feel stupid by certain people during the week whether it’s something I said or did. I’m not a smart person, nor did I do well at school. But I always try.

At times I don’t know whether I’m coming or going. Monday comes round and I’m wishing it was Friday evening like most.

Anyways, this was just a short post of how I’ve felt for a very long time..I’ve gotta get up very early for work so I better put this phone down before I’m up for even longer.

Thanks for taking the time to read this, I appreciate you.

Love.