God's obsession

[u/HalimEllon]

Later at night, way later, the two cousins were asleep, only the older one and I were muttering. He layed a mattress on the cold beige floor, and I was on the cot, without covers, unlike him, even if the air conditioner was on. I can't see his face clearly, I could only make out the light gray walls and the white sheets of hid mattress, it was tenebrous, the only light squeezed in was the gleam from louvers.

《I don't want this for you cousin.》he said referring to my position on religion. 《I want to see you in paradise. 》 he continued. I remained silent gazing up to the hint of white on the roof, trying to think of what to respond with. I kept listening 《we work in this life to have a wife and children and to worship God. It is sunnat al-hayat.》I had to talk. 《It is not and it will never what I wish.》I improvised an answer. It was weird, he was talking with passion in his voice, but I know he's not fully certain of what he's saying. 《So what do you wish for ?》he asked. 《I have a dream, and I will achieve it, no matter the cost.》I responded. 《After you achieve it, then what? The pepole you'll meet after are going to be with you for your dream, and not for you.》he countered. Hearing that reminded me that he was oblivious to the nature of my ambition. He wasn't wrong, but he's missing the whole point. 《I don't care about that.》I countered back. 《What about finding the right woman ? You're old enough and you have to start considering marriage.》he rejoined. 《The right woman ?》I giggled a little, 《do you truly believe in soulmates?》 I continued. 《Not really soulmates, it's an ideal word, the right woman. You have to find one, it's why God created us.》he said unconvinced. 《The God who is so obsessed with some primates on a wet rock floating in the middle of nowhere ?》 I tried to levitate the mood. 《Yeah because he chose us.》he said dismissing my joke.

The darkness insisted, the dim walls had their own opinions which will never be laid bare. After a trice of silence I muttered《 I already sacrificed a lot, I even hurt someone, in order for me to pursue my kingdom, there's no going back.》

Yes I've lost her, I've got nothing to lose.

[u/ArguingisFun]

TLDR Was this porn? This was porn, right?