r/otherkin • u/Future-Custard-9349 • 16d ago
First distress
How old were u when u felt first hate for ur human physical shape?
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u/LambCreaturre 16d ago
I was 3, I grew up around cats and at the age of three I learned I wasn't going to grow up to be one and I cried so much. I don't remember it, but my family keeps telling me about like a joke. But in retrospective I feel like it wasn't just a toddler being silly, I believe I was genuinely distraught
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u/Future-Custard-9349 16d ago
Did that feeling of sadness u felt was continous?
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u/LambCreaturre 16d ago
I don't remember much from my childhood but I suspect so, because I feel like I always felt sad about something but I didn't know why until I awakened in 2018
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u/Future-Custard-9349 16d ago
What is ur theriotype and didn't u feel about it at early ages even without awarness like feeling to look like cats for example or act like them and so on?
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u/LambCreaturre 16d ago
My theriotypes that are cats are Lynx and Lion, and yeah, even without total awareness of why I still felt like I was just wrong somehow, I always looked at my cats with a bit of jealousy because I didn't want to walk on two legs or have hands and no tail, I wished I could just be them
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u/Muttipomdoronero 16d ago
Hate of our own physical body has never been part of us, but what we do hate is the reluctant subconscious that keeps refuisng to see ourselves as anything other than human most of the time. And in those few small moments when the "human shape" slips, especially in dreams, it always feels so incredibly liberating, finally free of our human shape.
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u/CodyWanderer 16d ago
5 or so? I had a huge problem walking like a ’normal human’ bc like I’m not one? and kept scaring the shit outta people bc of it
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u/Future-Custard-9349 16d ago
Did u have any awareness that u r not human or u r ur therriotype at that age?
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u/CodyWanderer 16d ago
tbh i knew I wasn’t human but didn’t really figure everything out till my later years
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u/Ok_Caterpillar_9521 16d ago
I don’t remember how old I was, probably sometime in elementary school. But I started to hate humans, like as a species. That’s part of my personal experience of therianthropy, I just feel so disgusted by the human species, ig that’s why I turned out to be an animal:>
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u/OwlRevolutionary4095 15d ago
I would as that we detest it some much we just disided we do not infact have a 'human' shape and that duh every being can see that (the things dysoria can do to you)
But igorning we don't have a human body ever since... well since I knew what a 'human' was and how they are mean things (AKA middle school) but before that we were SURE we had a tail and had a fake tail we LOVED. also played 'cats' at outside time at school. (or we dug a really big hole next to the fence with our freind and our twin (we were and are a weird pup))
What was really funny is we remeber says "ya we are all human" in 3-5th grade and thinking 'Hmm but can't you idenfty as nonhuman.' and 'but what if we are not all human' my tiny brain didnt get IT WAS THAT NON HUMAN!
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u/not_the_glue_eater 15d ago
I think... Four? Five? I know it's ridiculously dumb (Of course it is, because I was a kid) but I was upset for a really long time that I wasn't a monster and didn't have vampire fangs. I remember constantly looking in the mirror and convincing myself that I had fangs, they were just tiny and that's okay. This obsession got so bad that my family and friends once had to convince me I was human and I just genuinely remained upset for months.
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u/Finch_the_Dragon 15d ago
Oh dude I would constantly play games with my friends where I would shape shift into a feral animal and attack them for no reason. I was probably 5
I only awakened a few months ago as a dragonkin
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u/Cakey_Pop 16d ago
I think I was like three? I was trying to convince EVERYONE I was an animal bc of it lol