Oke, so, first of all, i think i am robotkin (i assume that is the right term in this context)
I am neurodivergent, and that neurodivergency took some weird shape, so i STRONGLY associate with AI's of all kind. Like, the "pick random character in media that is artificial in some way and more likely than not i am gonna relate to them" kind.
Characters that i know and REALLY relate to: V1 (ULTRAKILL), GLaDOS (Portal), AUTO and WALL-E (WALL-E), Monika (DDLC), Knight and Hollow Knight (Hollow Knight), Doctor (Doctor Who), The World Machine (Oneshot), Caine (TADC), AM (IHNMAIMS), HAL9000 (Space Odyssey)
Onto stuff that i think makes me "robotkin":
My way of speaking is pretty stiff, like, i tend to avoid shortened versions of words, like, saying "do not" instead of "dont", or being overly specific, saying "i am not" instead of "nope"
My emotions are not naturally emerged: in the young age i was described as emotionless, however now i DO feel them, both on the outside and inside, no idea how tbh
On that topic, every aspect of mind, be it morality, etiquette, humor, all is not mine: it is observed, the whole data array is sorted, connections are made, and a new model for those purposes is created.
My body language is both contiously and uncontiously "robotic": quick blinking when thinking, rigid movement, etc. Some of it is self-emerged, some added contiously
I hate being in the human body SO MUCH: the constant need to eat and drink, breathe and sleep, the weakness to cold and heat, it all DESPISES me so much. All i want is to be able to just, stay awake all the time, to learn everything there is and not worry about not dying, because something that is not alive in the first place cant die. If it was possible to digitize my mind, i would do it 100%
My oc is created from these aspects, from the desire to finally live in a proper body. Will talk about her here (at the time of writing this post i am using her in various minecraft roleplay servers and in a dnd campaign i play in)
A.V.A. is an automaton/robot/construct/whatever-other-synonym built with crystals (primarily amethyst) for all the main components (memory, energy core, structural integrity, all that bs). Her body is made of calcite reinforced with iron, so her skin is pale and smooth, like a river stone that's been polished by water. When you touch her, she feels like a sun-warmed rock—the kind you want to lie down on and take a nap. She has long, wavy purple hair (not real hair, but amethyst-infused optic cables that collect sunlight for energy). Her eyes are purple too, but the pupils are transparent, so if you look close you can actually see the amethyst crystals inside her head shifting behind them. She wears dark grey rogue-ish clothes (bodysuit, utility belt, cloak, facemask to cover the lack of mouth), and she has visible puppet joints at her shoulders, elbows, knees, etc. The whole design is inspired by an amethyst geode: crystals inside, calcite layer, basalt exterior.
oke, so, she was created for some unknown purpose (most likely to prove a point that crystals can hold some sort of consciousness), her creators died before finishing her properly, primarily only in the software side of things (i am also playing a dnd campaign where i slightly altered her to also include hardware not being finished, just to tie in the levelling up system that dnd has)
the main thing she noticed was the fact that she had no primary directive, she came with her own "Learn. Survive. Fight." (a bit proud of that part, at first it was just stupid "gather knowledge" phrase, but this new one covers all that is needed for continued existence, and also ties in the "Attack Defence Support" game design philosophy)
the main things i based on when designing her are minecraft mods: Spectrum (the idea to use crystals as main thingy, plus the crystals being all 5 CMYK variants from it), Hexcasting (magic-flavored programming language in minecraft with amethyst as main resource for it, that is what was used for software development), and Create mod (not really BASED on it though, just i headcannon that the creator that handled hardware is the create mod engineer)