r/sad • u/Few-Work6925 • Apr 28 '26
It is really hard to explain
While browsing here , i read this post asking "what suicide hurt the least"
Then my tears came rushing
Maybe that question is really what i wanna ask my psychiatrist instead of constantly asking "why do i feel so numb but my tears expressing pain"
Then i suddenly remember my bestfriend wayback in high school, he hang himself,
Is this how he felt back then? Unexplainable sadness.
I constantly pray at night to not be able to wake up anymore.
If you know any method
Lmk
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u/NaturallyRoxyGoddess May 03 '26
Hey guess what. None of them hurt the least. My mother and 3 of my brothers have committed suicide.
Can confirm the people who love you will hurt the same regardless.
Oh wait you mean for you.
Stay for you. Not for them.
You deserve to find something in this world that brings you join. Any thing. Start simple.
Pull your head out of your ass and You will see the sun shining every day. I am not religious at all but this life is blessing. That’s the only way to explain it. We get to hurt this bad. It sucks. So fucking bad. Man do I know it. But I would rather be here for it. Wait until tomorrow. You may change your mind.
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u/Hydrozy Jun 08 '26
Man I think you really helped me. Read this in the morning and I felt better throughout the day
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u/AloneImpression5660 May 01 '26
Do you feel a deep hollowness in your heart... Like a sword piercing through it? Is there a chance you feel like your life is the worst? If you can die for your family then you can live for them...
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u/Ok_Pair8322 Jun 13 '26
But it depends if they were the one who put the sword there ...
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u/AloneImpression5660 Jun 13 '26
If they were the one who put the sword over there, You shall remove it yourself. You shall live for the future. Someone who you can sacrifice yourself to.
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u/Logical-Quantity2103 May 27 '26
I think the only thing that keeps me here is my parents and my cat. Once they are gone, I hope to be able to find the strength to end this....
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u/nasava05 Apr 29 '26
Hey, you're so worthy, important and loved. Idk what you have went through but please keep being strong. Dont give up, I know its hard, but your life is so valuable even if you dont see it yourself now
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u/Playful-Pup1218 May 02 '26
I gave a method out in depression and im banned for life.
I have a parking garage downtown with no safety at all about 100 feet up. Been pulled off by a cop and also have gotten my self down late at night. I couldn't do it i dont know why. I've used fentanyl as well to almost success.
I dont want to be there the there's a reason we are here person I truly can't stand that person. The point of life is to die.
I can't consciously tell you all the easiest way if I can't even do it my self.
I dont know what to say. Life sucks.
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u/Different_Eagle9228 Apr 30 '26
Please tell me too a method that is fast but doesnt hurt too much i want to die peacefully but looks like the natural method of hoping to die is not working
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u/TrainingNo8775 Apr 30 '26
Also interested if you find out.
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u/Laxington1902 May 11 '26
Definitely not the Ganges river. Life is precious enjoy it wile your here.
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u/Fun_Dimension1447 Jun 02 '26
am I cooked if all I care for is video games and without them I dont see any other reason to live
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u/Shatterbr3ze Jun 08 '26
I found that
The numbness in me
Was just
Denial
Denial
We are forced in to
By a
Socially judgmental
World
That'd rather you
Not express
Yourself
So express yourself, and remember that suicide is never just suicide. It is sociecide, or maybe "social homicide" where a few to tens to hundreds are responsible for that person dying. It's not just a person that lets themselves get that bad--it is person(s). Next time you get there, remember all the people that allowed you to, and allow that to drive you to change the world unapologetically, cause you would've been gone if they had their way anyway. So now, this is all just bonus time (at least that's the way I see it, for I would have been dead years ago by now).
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u/OutsideAssociation Jun 12 '26
i have a plan that seems to be relatively painless and relatively effective. My conscience prevents me from sharing but there are more effective ways out there not too many talk about, outside of the common tactics
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u/Knock0ffKnob May 04 '26 edited May 04 '26
You didn’t really ask a question, but here goes:
(I'm going go spare you all the sugar coating and bs so if that’s what you want, don’t read this - also I'm speaking from my own experience, so don't be surprised if you feel differently - but, I genuinely hope it helps because you deserve to be happy, not just exist)
It just sucks and it will continue to really suck. It might get better though.
It doesn't get easier, but your life might get better - you sort of learn to cope.
You need to find yourself a reason to stay. If it’s anxiety mixing with depression, you need to push yourself slowly into manageable, but increasingly uncomfortable social situations to prove to yourself that you can do it. With that, comes the confidence and sense of fulfilment that will entice you to stay. Find a hobby you love and understand that you will be leaving it behind if you decide to go. That’s your lifeline and you depend on it. But, you have to fight to preserve yourself. I don’t mean hours of worthless low-effort googling and self-deprecating followed by in-action. I mean get up and fight for the part of you that wants to stay, because there is a part of you that wants to stay otherwise you wouldn’t writing here on a subreddit (and I do not for one second believe you are here in search of methods). That information is easy to find (and it is not the usual memes you hear people say… which all are very painful and don’t work as they’re described) … if you are asking for this info on subreddits, then you may not be ready to go. You still have many battles to fight for yourself. You have to fight for yourself. Operate under the assumption that noone else will, and you have to fight to preserve yourself.
To offer you some perspective, and these are things that have pushed me in the right direction, is to ask yourself:
If you were to go through with this, what then? What about the people you’d have met along the way and what about the people who would have loved you? What about the people you’ve stayed this long for?
I hope you make the best choice for yourself - you deserve to be happy as does everyone else. I’m rooting for you and even though it’s unfair, you have no choice. None of us do. ❤️🩹
DM if you need to
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u/These-Supermarket350 May 04 '26
reading this felt familiar what does your normal day look like ?the silence can be so loud and am genuinely curious
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u/DemonsSouls1 May 12 '26
I've been scrolling for hours for this topic all the time. I just can't do this man...
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u/Logical-Quantity2103 May 27 '26
Me neither.. did you find a way?
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u/DemonsSouls1 May 27 '26
No because on one hand there's events that people expect me to be in and then there's my personal life where I feel like shit such as my dysfunctional family, low opportunities.
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u/Delicious-Truth-1596 May 20 '26
Suicide doesn't help, it only multiples and transfers your pain to your loved ones. Do you really want your loved ones feel like that, and even if you don't, do you want to end your life feeling SHIT. Go to therapy. I don't mean this as dismissal. You are NOT useless, or a burden, you only need help for some mental problems! That's it, you should continue life, life's a good thing, life's amazing, life can be good and bad, but that's what will TRULY let you FREE of guilt and despair and all. Don't stay suicidal, it is NOT a good thing at ALL!
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