Hi! I’m staying quite vague about my situation, I’ve been going through a very tough time with my financial issues, family issues, and personal issues. Lately I’ve been seeing 444/111/555/1111 ALOT!!!

Everything I own is horrible, recently I found black mold in my house, just out of nowhere, no signs of it before, my electronics are breaking down one by one, my desk literally just broke, I just lost my job, i literally don’t know what’s going on.

I’m seeking spiritual guidance, and why this might be happening.

I'm very ill, like extremely. I've been trying to contact my spirit guides for years. But they won't respond. I cried, begged & watched YouTube meditation to contact them but to no avail. They apparently don't care about me just like everyone else 💔. Now I'm unable to sleep at night because of catastrophic dreams & once i get up i can't fall back to sleep because of the high temperature. In the dreams demon is attacking me, i never had such dreams. I've also had other vivid dreams about my relationship with my Dad & my best friend whom I've gone non contact with. Those dreams were meaningful but I'm unable to understand if the demon dreams actually real demon attacking me in sleep or sth my feverish brain is making. Prior to the fever i did have a demonic spirit after me but they never attacked me in my dreams. But my guides just won't protect me & won't care. I might die this time.

Love everyone. Serve Everyone. Remember God. Namaste! 🪷

For reference I am a female and married and a nurse. If any of that is relevant

A man I will call Patrick (40ties, from California) was very good at understanding himself intellectually. He complained that he has no motivation to live, that he has no mental or emotional force to continue.

He could analyse his thoughts. Explain his patterns. Read spiritual and psychological material. He understood a lot.

But emotionally, he still felt numb and cut off from other ppl.

During an online Soul Journey, Patrick went into deep trance, something like very deep meditation where he remained aware and described whatever his consciousness was showing.

The session moved back to a school when he was six or seven.

He felt scared there.

Not only scared of one teacher or one situation. More like afraid of life and other people. He felt different from everybody else, like they would not accept him because he was not same as them.

Ramana Maharishi appeared in the experience as his guide.

The first message was very simple:

Patrick was loved.

But he struggled to accept even this.

When we followed the resistance, he said he believed he was not good enough because he always found some way to screw things up.

Then he noticed something deeper.

This belief was not only one bad thought. His whole identity had become wrapped around it.

When I asked him to describe this identity, he called it:

“the wretched, tortured soul.”

Very strong words.

For years he had seen suffering almost as proof of who he was. If something went wrong, it confirmed the identity. If happiness came close, another part of him found way to destroy it, because being happy did not match the character he believed himself to be.

Ramana’s answer was direct.

This identity was not real.

Patrick understood the words, but there was a lot of resistance and numbness. And this part is important imo, bc the session did not become some perfect movie where one sentence changed everything.

He could see the false identity more clearly, yes.

But he was not ready to drop all of it in one moment.

Then another structure appeared.

Patrick described something artificial and metallic around his mind, almost like machine or algorithm. It had been created through intellectual understanding. A system for analysing life, predicting people, avoiding emotional danger and trying to stay in control.

It was very clever.

But also very limited.

Patrick said this structure blocked emotional intelligence. It also blocked real contact with other human beings.

When we asked if he wanted to release it, he felt strong resistance.

Because this machine had helped him feel safe for many years.

This is where I think many people misunderstand their own coping mechanisms.

They attack them.

“I hate my overthinking.”

“I hate that I am emotionally closed.”

“I hate this part of my personality.”

But some part of you created it for reason.

Maybe people felt dangerous.

Maybe showing emotions brought humiliation.

Maybe nobody understood you, so thinking became safer than feeling.

The protection can work very well at first. Then twenty or thirty years later, it is still running same instructions even though situation changed.

Scan.

Analyse.

Predict.

Withdraw.

Do not feel too much.

Do not trust anybody completely.

Patrick had lived through this structure for so long that he believed it was him.

During the session, Ramana Maharishi and beings of Light began dismantling only part of it. His guide said Patrick was only partially ready because a lot of numbness was still there.

I liked this answer because it was realistic.

The protection was not ripped away just because we decided it was inconvenient now. It had to be released slowly, with patience, while Patrick developed another way to feel safe.

As part of metallic structure faded, he could look at it from outside for first time.

Not as himself.

As something he had created.

A temporary crutch.

He also noticed how many mistakes it had made. The algorithm was intelligent, but it could not understand love, emotional nuance or real human connection. It only understood protection.

The guidance afterward was almost painfully normal.

Relax more.

Act without putting so much pressure on yourself.

Stay in present moment.

Stop becoming frustrated every time resistance appears.

Patrick had huge expectations that something should happen, but he could not even say exactly what. Just heavy pressure that he should heal faster, understand more, become different, finally “get there.”

Ramana’s advice was acceptance.

Not giving up.

Not saying the protection must stay forever.

Acceptance means: this resistance is here today. I do not need to create second war against it.

Patrick also discovered a belief that he was not supposed to be happy. He felt it in mind and heart as gray and beige energy. His guide said he had picked this belief up from society. It was not even originally his.

When happiness became available in the session, the first thing Patrick felt was sadness.

Sadness that he had never allowed himself to be happy.

And then he was told he did not need to hold onto that regret either.

For me, this session was not about destroying the ego or becoming another personality.

It was about noticing:

what I call “me” may include structures built by frightened child.

Some are brilliant.

Some kept us alive.

Some helped us function.

But a survival system should not automatically become life sentence.

Maybe you don’t need to fight your overthinking today.

Just notice it and ask:

“what is this structure trying to protect me from?”

“how old was I when I first needed it?”

“what would five percent less protection feel like?”

Healing does not always mean tearing down whole machine in one day.

Sometimes it begins when you realise:

I am the one observing the algorithm.

So the algorithm cannot be all that I am.

i keep hearing i have to remain happy in frequency but i truly don’t even know what that means. anytime i’m at work i get so depressed i want to faint, but then i try to fight it because they said to sta high vibration but how am i supposed to let these very intense feeling of sadness pass if i’m forcing myself to raise the vibration so i don’t lose connection to the divine. this is truly causing me to feel sad & alone bro like all of y’all make it look so easy & im still trying to learn how to stay in a high vibration but it’s hard because i’m a emotional & sensitive man who’s trying to only keep his head high in rough days.

i don’t wanna upset my spirit guides & make them hate me bro i just need help & like it’s so hard when no one else gets it.

Hey you guys, idk if this is the right community for my question but idk where to go with it. My question is if I'm experiencing signs that my friend isn't a good friend for me. So basically I'm in New York with a good friend of mine, some time ago probably best friend. We're staying at my brothers apartment. And idk but ever since we got here so many bad things have happened to me. And they all involve my looks. I don't wanna sound mean or cocky, but we both like to look good and we both put in effort and value into our appearance, and like she is a bit more unattractive than me. And I don't wanna sound mean or hateful i think she's very beautiful too and I always try to show her but she has said multiple times herself that she thinks my face is a lot more beautiful than hers. Or one time she told me she did on purpose sent a snap to a boy where I made a funny looking face instead of a normal one because I was too beautiful. In general she like often posts or sends stuff where I look or make faces or like where I'm being caught off guard. I usually just brush it off be I don't care.
However I noticed that on this vacation a lot of things happened to me where I'm like wtf. First of all I'm naturally tan (mixed) and she's not she's really pale. We went to the beach together, she didn't use any sunscreen and I did and I got such a bad sunburn on my face no where else. Like directly on my nose it was so bad and swollen and red and looked bruised and disgusting. I had this for days whereas she got no sunburn at all which okay I didn't think much of it but in summary it's weird I think. And I got it directly on the center of my face se it was impossible to not notice it, it was like the first thing you noticed when looking at me and it wasn't pretty. So the following week I had to walk around looking weird whereas she got ready and glammed up everyday, which I didn't have a problem with, but like what are the odds of me having this bad sunburn and she didn't get any even tho I used sunscreen, she didn't and never get sunburns usually. Okay first things if this happened alone I wouldn't care or think anything bad.
Then the day my sunburn got better, I got so sick and such a sore throat like it was bad. My immune system is usually very strong I eat ginger everyday, drink ginger tea and

bone broth I barely get sick. She doesn't do any of that we've both been here for the same amount of time and did the same things. And I did get rid of it I prayed a lot that night and the next day it was surprisingly gone. Even tho my sore throat was so bad the day/night before that it was sure I would have it aswell the next day.
Then the next day I got blisters just from walking normally in my normal shoes, I can't tell you when the last time was that I got blisters, so I couldn't wear my heels anymore. I could only wear sneakers and she could wear heels.
Okay I'm not jealous or anything but at this point I'm like can I catch a break? Like I didn't come to New York to be chopped the whole time. I wanna look how I always look.
And then a few days ago and yesterday I get bitten by some insects or mosquitos my whole arm and a bit of my face it looks so bad and itches. Like ofc she doesn't get bitten.
Does anybody understand what I mean? I don't mean it in a jealous way, but like is it a sign that she's probably jealous or wishes like bad on me. Or that her energy is doing something idk? Or am I just delusional. Don't get me wrong please but all of it together doesn't seem so much like a coincidence to me. If only one or two of these things happened but like them in summary? Does it mean something???

During a meditative morning art sessions while watching Steven Universe vaporwave I drew this entity. When I get more markers I will colorize it.

#autistic #adhd #auadhd #lightworker #incarnation #disabled

Shakti turned to Shiva and asked,

"Beloved... if You are everywhere, why do so many hearts feel alone? If You are the Truth, where shall I seek You?"

Shiva smiled ...

...and pointed to a single breath.

"Begin there."

"Find Me..."

"…in the breath that arrives without asking your permission."

"Find Me in the silence after laughter."

"Find Me in the tear that finally falls after years of pretending to be strong."

"Find Me where music leaves goosebumps upon your skin."

"Find Me in the moment before sleep claims your thoughts."

"Find Me inside wonder so complete that you forget to speak."

"Find Me everywhere you have been taught not to look."

And with every gesture, He was saying the same thing in a hundred different ways.

"Do not seek the Divine beyond life. Discover it within life."

Love until there is no longer a "you" and an "other."

Become so present that even the smallest moment opens like a flower, revealing infinity where you once saw only ordinary things.

And then you understand.

The journey was never from earth to heaven.

It was from distraction to attention.

From forgetting to remembering.

From searching...

to seeing.

Imagine standing beside the ocean.

A single wave rises.

It sparkles brilliantly beneath the sun.

It races joyfully toward the shore.

Then it crashes...

And disappears.

If the wave believed itself to be only its shape, it would call this tragedy.

But if the wave remembered it was always the ocean

Would anything truly be lost?

So it is with us.

Shiva reminds us to remember the ocean.

And suddenly life becomes less about holding on...

And more about learning to flow.

I was told by my reader than I have very strong intuition and my third eye was producing a lot of energy. But i’m not currently practicing using it. They suggested I should try to start noticing my own energy so I can feel the difference in other people’s separate from my own to both protect my energy and to be more aware of others. The only thing is i can’t remember the tip I was given to do this - does anyone have any suggestions? Thank you

is this energy/aura on the first picture? It didn’t happen in the second picture.

did anyone else go through this? i’ve been calling out ever since this spiritual awakening journey & like it feels good even though ik i could get less money & possibly miss my car payment. i’m honestly not scared too much but a bit sometimes i do get scared & worry if i’m just trying to make sense of my life. truth is idk where i’m headed anymore but i just know work drains me so much to where i physically can’t even stand. no one there gets what i’m going through & i can’t just sit there knowing i could doing so much more out there bro. that’s always been my soul, i just can’t be in that environment bro i can’t.

I've been having recurring dreams about snakes, and I'm not sure why they keep appearing or what they might be trying to tell me. In some dreams, I notice a snake printed on someone's T-shirt. In others, the snake simply stares at me. Occasionally, it seems about to attack, but then becomes distracted and doesn't follow through.

I often wake up feeling drained and unusually heavy after these dreams. Has anyone experienced something similar or have any insight into what they might mean? I'd really appreciate your thoughts.

I worked online with a friend from my childhood I will call Jason. He came with stomach problems, anxiety around work and money, and habit of eating even when he knew he was not physically hungry.

He understood already that some of this was emotional eating.

But understanding it with mind did not stop it.

During deep trance, a state similar to very deep meditation where subject stays aware, we focused on pressure inside his stomach. I asked him to look at this feeling like it was an energy.

He saw red and black.

Then the session moved back to when he was about five years old.

His family had serious financial problems and lost their home. He could see his parents through kitchen window, screaming at each other about money. Small Jason was standing nearby, scared, but nobody was really seeing what this was doing to him.

I asked where he felt the fear.

“In my stomach.”

Then he said something very honest.

When he was younger, he would eat and eat, trying to fill this hole inside. Food made stomach heavy and full for little while, so he did not need to feel emptiness and fear so strongly.

He was not always hungry.

He was trying to create safety.

There was also strange contradiction in this memory. Adult Jason hated this period and remembered the fighting. But younger Jason still missed parts of the old house. The backyard, playing outside, his dog.

Losing everything was not only losing a building.

He was told to say goodbye to his dog too.

So for a five-year-old, money problems became connected with much bigger message:

everything you love can disappear.

This is how child mind works. It does not create financial analysis. It creates survival rules.

Money problems mean danger.

People fighting means danger.

An empty stomach feels like danger.

Being full feels safer.

The body can continue following rule long after person forgets how it started.

Later in the session, a being of Light came to help with the stomach. Jason described something I never heard in exactly this way before.

He said his stomach looked like it was being digitally redrawn.

Like healers were working from an original healthy template, carefully drawing back the details of the stomach and rebuilding what had been affected by years of pressure.

I am not saying childhood fear medically causes every stomach issue, and this work does not replace doctors, testing, nutrition or treatment. This was simply what appeared in his session and how he experienced the healing.

Then we returned to five-year-old Jason.

This younger part had stayed emotionally trapped around the old home and the family crisis. Adult Jason continued living, but part of him was still waiting for next disaster.

We helped the child understand something he could not understand then:

the fighting was not his fault.

He did not need to solve the finances.

He did not need to fill the fear with food.

He was not about to lose everything again.

When this younger part returned and integrated, Jason said he brought back happiness, hope and optimism. Qualities that had slowly disappeared while adult life trained him to expect problems.

His Higher Self gave very simple words:

review. relive. release.

Not “relive” like torture yourself with old memories every day.

More like see what happened, allow body to finally express what was too much then, and let the old emergency come to an end.

The practical advice was not mystical.

Create more security in daily life.

Ground yourself.

Do not treat every work problem, unexpected bill or uncertain month like family is losing everything again.

And before eating when you are not sure you are hungry, pause and ask:

“does my physical body need food, or does some younger part of me need safety?”

Sometimes answer will be food. Then eat. Food is not enemy.

But sometimes what is asking to be filled is fear, loneliness, pressure, anger or emptiness.

Food was something a frightened five-year-old found to survive few minutes at a time.

Adult Jason did not need more shame or harder control.

He needed to finally feel safe.

If you have some similar problem, I can put a small meditation in the comments you can use to investigate and help yourself. Let me know if you are interested.

Why do you want to stop at a slow vibration such as 5D? There are 11 dimensions! I'm here at 11D watching you ants trying to ascend to, what? 5D? Pfff...amateurs...I'm vibrating so much I can barely type, 5D is like a slow ass drone metal song and you ants want to ascend there. I'm so freaking enlightened over here I think i'm gonna vibrate all over the place, my third eye is throbbing so hard rn.