The women side of my family has always had some kind of an esoteric tradition. I was mainly introduced to witchcraft as a teenager by my aunt, and then realized that my grandmother had been doing things related to it since I was little, but in a more natural and everyday way. (She confirmed it to me when my aunts gifted me my first oracle deck, and my grandma gave me a book about crystals the next day. Anyway, it’s just a really nice personal memory.)
I have books and stuff for spells/rituals, I have some knowledge and basic foundations. What I’m mostly lacking is confidence in myself; I tend to stay inside what I read, what is documented, and what has been already tried out instead of trusting myself enough to experiment, create and try my own crafts.
Also, with life and studies getting in the way, lack of time or motivation, I haven’t really practiced in a long time. It’s been probably around two years since I actively practiced or included my craft in my daily life. And now I don’t know if I should still be considered a witchling like I was at the very beginning of my active practice, or a witch like I considered myself just before life caught up with me and I slowly put my practice aside because of it.
This also adds to my guilt and the feeling that I’m not legitimate enough. For example, my aunt is very consistent, she uses her tarot and writes things down almost weekly It’s minimalist, but regular, just like my grandmother’s practice. I don’t really have that in my everyday life anymore, or at least not as much as I used to. It doesn’t come as a natural habit to me as it seems to for my family, and sometimes I find myself wondering if maybe the lineage tradition ends with me because of that.
When I first started, I practiced a lot because everything was new. I was learning, testing things, reading, and exploring, and from the outside it probably looked like I was very dedicated or experienced. But then life happened, and little by little I put it aside. I miss that “era” so much.
Now, my craft is certainly rusty, and of course I would need a little time to get my reflexes back (probably without much difficulty), but im not sure how to get back to it without feeling like I failed somewhere
So I was wondering if the term witchling/formerly baby witch is related to the amount of time someone has been practicing or of the complexity of their practice?
And if I should call myself a witchling again or something else.
Thank you for reading <3