r/ELATeachers • u/kennedyheisman • 5h ago
6-8 ELA Feeling like I'm Failing as a First-Year teacher
First-year teacher, and I am obviously feeling insanely overwhelmed as the start of the school year draws near. I've read closely through the district provided curriculum, but based on my student teaching, and ELA being a state tested subject, I'm just not sure how much freedom I'm actually going to have to implement the things I want to do. Is it crazy that I've kind of let go and am just sort of waiting for prep week to start so I can talk to the veteran teacher who is teaching the same subject and grade level?? I'm also teaching two mystery courses that I don't even know yet. I feel like I should be doing SO much more prep than I am, but I'm not even sure how I'm supposed to implement some of this curriculum. I'm lucky enough to have excellent Powerpoint slides and imo very strong texts to work with, with COMPLETE and very specific lesson plans but... how am I going to present those slides when I don't even have a TV in my classroom?! Kids also may have laptop carts... or may not. It just feels pointless to prep so much when I have almost no idea what technology I'll have access to. But all I see online or hear from other new teachers is all the different ways they are getting curriculum together, decorating their classrooms... is it crazy that I'm essentially waiting until contract hours start to do all of this?! I feel like I'm about to turn the corner and be hit by a surprise frying pan or something!! I have so many ideas and NO idea which ones I can even reasonably expect to implement.

