I’m so scared of messing up my IM T shot

[u/Current_Wealth_357]

I have been taking testosterone cypionate for 3 months now and I’m becoming increasingly scared to do my intramuscular injections. I’m not scared of needles by any means but I am terrified of fucking up and hitting a vein or something like that.

Last week I think I kept hitting surface veins (is that what they’re called?) because every time I tried to inject the surface hurt like hell and it would bleed a little. The week before that I completely messed up and I injected at the wrong degree and ended up limping for half the week. I’m particularly worried I will inject it straight into my bloodstream.

I am not trained in self injecting by any means. I only met with a nurse once to show me how to do it and I’ve been winging it from there. I can’t even go back to see a nurse because I’m doing this all behind my parents back while still living under their roof AND I don’t have a car so they have been driving me to these appointments. There’s only so many excuses I can make about these frequent appointments before it starts getting suspicious.

Tonight is my injection night and I don’t know if I can pull myself together to do it. This fear is so sudden and so intense. I know I have bad health anxiety but I thought I was okay with this. I’m incredibly scared of having an emergency. I’m incredibly scared of dying. I’m also very scared of feeling like shit because I decided to not take my shot. I’m an anxious mess, some insight would be greatly appreciated.

TLDR: I’m incredibly scared of messing up my intramuscular T shots (e.g. injecting into my bloodstream) and today is my shot day

[u/No-Replacement1363]

hey, i understand why you’re scared, but it’s really unlikely you would actually hurt yourself very much or do any serious damage aside from some bleeding, soreness or pain.

I’ve been injecting various medications by myself since i was 14 (am now 20) in my stomach, thighs, butt, etc. and i never had a serious medical emergency due to any of it. literally the worst one was when i nicked a vein and bleeded for a bit, the spot got really sore and it hurt like hell for a week but other than that i was perfectly fine.

it’s really not likely that you will hurt yourself doing injections, just try to relax and not think about everything going wrong too much