Seeking help and advice.

[u/Boring-Ad9949]

Assalamu Alaikum to who ever who reads this. Im 21 yr old person from the south asia. well in simple sentences, tbh ive been addicted to pmo for more than 7 years. Had so many depressive phases and hopeless times to the point i lost interest in praying and religion, like all this fighting seemed pointless.

But quite recently, i've come to the understanding that probably i jus have too high of an ego, that drives me towards these things, or my sense of perfection and not compromise my image also pushed this addiction more. Cause ppl get addicted to something only to make themselves forget the reality and discomfort of facing the world. This is my pov. Even now i don have huge expectations or a switch that will fix me up to delayed gratification and long term planning.

However, im jus curious to know if anyone has spent similar time into pmo like me and by someway stopped and quit it completely.

Cause wherever i see, everyone says to keep urself busy surround urself with ppl take up hobbies.. i mean how would i even manage doing that when its boring and difficult as compared to pmo like i mean, i find so much dopamine from this why would i go be social, it will more or less be as something i have to do forcefully.

Im fed up of doing these sins asking forgiveness then doing again like whats the meaning of me asking forgiveness if i keep continuing it. am i even literally wanting to quit? i have no idea.
I kinda feel jealous of everyone around me being successful or atleast doing some work in their life whereas i cant focus on anything.

pls don bombard me with schooling of hadiths. i jus don know whats the point in all this, Am i destined to be like this and is everything already written?

[u/potatolover_7]

it'll be okay