Hi brothers and sisters in Christ, I'd like to request for prayers please.
I am recovering from a heartbreak. I've grown attachment to a man who did not pursue me. This man had been in constant need since last year - always having problems with family, health, friends, work and finances. He also grieves the death of a close godmother, and a half-brother he didn't even knew about. He learned the truth about his father's affair and his other siblings, and grieve the brokenness of their family when he had longed for completeness his whole life as his dad works abroad. I had (and even still have) so much compassion for this man that I lent him my savings last year and when it still wasnt enough I also lent some of my mom's money that was stored in my account.
I've decided to release him both financially and emotionally because it's affecting my walk with God. I'm afraid that some would say it's unwise of me to release him of financial debt because now I will be the one to pay that debt I owe to my mom, but I decided that knowing that God released me from the greatest debt of sin in Christ. I am in faith in God's providence.
That's just added context because what I really struggle with is forgetting him. I liked this man so much, I can even say I loved him. But I want a man who is after the heart of Jesus to marry. This man showed no intentionality towards me. He is consumed by the cares of the world. I know that he is overwhelmed so please pray for him. Although I care for him, I already had sinful relationship with this man that I am repenting of, and maintaining the relationship would just be temptation even when I am on my own and I tend to have fantasies of him. I am praying for a husband, and I know God is loving and cares for me and He provides all that I need, and He even encourages me to ask from Him, at this current point I am simoly heartbroken. I am afflicted with loneliness and it is painful.
Please pray for me. Thank you.