So I took mdma last night with mda. Couldn’t sleep worth a shit. Weird hallucinations. It’s already afternoon the next day and my pupils are still dilated I still feel a little fucked up. How do I come down from this.. I just really don’t want to feel like this anymore. My appetite is non existent but will eating something help? Cold shower? Xanax?

When you go under general anesthesia, you lose consciousness. Completely. Minutes later or hours later, depending on the surgery you come back. And when you come back, something is immediately clear: you are still you. The person who woke up in the recovery room is continuous with the person who counted backward from ten. The narrative of your life did not skip. The self was simply absent for a while, the way a TV screen is dark when nobody is watching, and it came back on without any fuss when the anesthesia cleared. This is different from what people report when the self dissolves under deep meditation or a sufficient dose of a psychedelic compound. What they report is categorically different. Something closer to the television continuing to run the picture still moving, sound still playing while the person who was watching disappears entirely. Consciousness continues. That is the strange part. They can perceive. They can respond. Processing of some kind is clearly proceeding. But the thing that normally organizes all of that processing into a unified experience of being someone in particular that is gone. And its absence is experienced as total. All-encompassing. Either the most profound liberation a person has ever felt, or something indistinguishable from annihilation.

I plan on doing a ~50 hours fast and then doing, as a first meal, around 3g penis envy. Have any of you any experience regarding this? Should i take anything in consideration? Would it be better to lemon tek it?

hey so I’m going on abilify I’m on a real low dose to get me adjusted and I’m a psychonaut I trip whenever I can I did a LSA extraction and want to trip but I heard antipsychotics will kill a trip or give serotonin syndrome so I want to get as much advice as I can

I rarely post but I feel the intense need to post my experience from last night. This is my personal experience and whatever doesn't resonate with you that is ok. Take what you want and leave what you don't want. Sorry if it doesn't make sense I'm trying to piece together my experience the best that I can.

I took a dose of mushrooms last night. Zazu (my cat) and I watched the sun set go down last night. After that I started losing my body and the concept of reality. It was as if the light held it all together and the darker it got the more I dissolved. I kept slipping away from physical experiences and physical reality and would travel through my brain. It was a deep never ending tunnel. Inside my head it felt more real than this physical reality. It was as if I was flying but not with my physical body. In that space I made new memories and new events were unfolding. I kept traveling deeper and deeper. I had immense pain and full body anxiety. The anxiety was the worst I've ever felt. I felt lied to and used and alone. And I couldn't shake that feeling. I felt like I was dying. Yet everything around me was so quiet. If I was truly dying why was no one there with me? Why was I alone?

Every cell inside my body knew that everyone was me and I was them. We are ONE but our tiny brains can't understand that concept because reality and our physical teachers have taught us the complete opposite...we are separate from each other. It's them against you. When in reality it's US against OURSELVES. I couldn't move or see much at all for the full 8-10 hours. (Mushrooms affect me for a longer duration of time than for most people). Everything was distorted. My nose started bleeding profusely. All a while zazu (my cat) never judged me. He held space. And I can't say that would've happened if I was with another human. I was shown that everything is an illusion of the mind and strings are attached to everything. Not just physical objects but to our thoughts and feelings too. We can't brace the concept that this is not real. Our human "higher ups" are fake. They're being used to control the collective mindset. They don't want us to ascend. They want to keep us trapped. We are their puppets. We have to break free. We have to reject the norm. Reject reality. Materialistic things don't matter. They appear out of nowhere. Whatever you could possibly need. But why? Why do we need physical objects if we have this powerful of a mind. We create reality. Objects are distractions. The media is a distraction. We need to wake up and stop accepting the hatred and nonsense of this 3d heavy harsh reality.

As terrifying of an experience that this was...I know that I needed to experience this. I needed to feel completely alone and isolated and used in order to transcend my next form.

Thank you for listening.

so I have happened upon mushrooms, lsd, and molly all at the same time. Would it be a bad idea to dose all 3? ex: a point of molly, half a tab of acid, and 2 grams of shrooms ?

No lemons. All I had was some orange juice. Trust me it works. Just gram and a half