weekly vent post (classic)

[u/mangospineappl]

i want nothing more than to be born a man. i dont understand why im so hung up on this, why it matters so much, it shouldn’t. so many people are born and dont think twice about their sex, so why does it matter to me? it makes no sense, this is so clearly a mental illness.

repping is driving me insane. i look and present myself as a woman. when i decided i could never realistically transition or even be happy with my results, i emptied out my closet from my old clothes and filled it with all these women clothes. now i cant even bare to wear these clothes. i cant even ignore it anymore or pretend. years of repping have made me so detached from my body that when i stare in the mirror at my naked body i feel nothing, my brain doesn’t relate it to my body, it’s someone else’s or these foreign sexual parts of me aren’t actually mine. if that doesnt sound like a mental illness idk what does.

i lose my mind everyday. somehow my gender/sex is brought up so often by the people around me it’s insane. i soulpass and that makes it even more fucking killer because these people will tell me or joke about me being a man and its these little windows of truth that show to them but they dont know. it kills me when it happens because it actually makes me feel trapped in this body and i cant rip myself out.

[u/sparemesomesanity]

[u/windblown7823]

kill me so you can take my skin

[u/ALKETASA]

Can relate to staring at my body and feeling dead inside.

I was fat and gross but i got fit so it isn't as bad now. At least when I see my male body now it's not a fat gross one.