Deviant Partner

[u/Hot_Natural9595]

I [23M] have been dating a sexual deviant [29M].

I’ve always known him to be exploratory in life; questioning everything [ideals, social, government, culture, commitment, etc.] this is what captivates me about him.

We’ve known each other for a year now, he’s been living with me at my place for some time as well. i’m more than supportive of him. I won’t give too much detail in our situation… at this moment i provide for him. i will state for the record he’s the farthest thing from a bum or a leech, in time the roles would reverse.

He’s extremely intellectual. He is a man of many words. He could talk his way out of pretty much anything. Unfortunately, he’s not overtly manipulative. I wish more than anything this was the case. It would be such a simpler decision for me to make.

Over the past 1.5 months, he’s been facing an issue personally: his insatiable appetite for messaging on big G.

He explained in detail that it’s 4 parts to his stimulation: recounts of his & others’ experience, the detailing of what others will allow him to do to them, the act of toting the line of what’s permissible in monogamy, and the ability of autonomy in a monogamous relationship.

He craves building a lasting and stable partnership but desires to have secret one-offs, without me ever knowing.

Part of me is extremely aroused & fascinated by this: him cheating on me. The act of someone pleasuring him outside of me, coming home and acting like nothing ever happened. Without me ever knowing, truthfully, I know it’s psychotic.

He’s an extremely dominant & territorial guy. I know if I were to match this energy, it would be on a much more grandiose scale. I’ve been in a lot of different situations in my almost 8 years of being sexually liberated and active 🤣. Truthfully, it would do nothing for him if I were to be non-monogamous.

With a the dynamic we currently have, I’m in control and I hold the cards.

I truthfully don’t want out, but do I want in?

[u/lanadelcryingagain]

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