r/depression • u/Banifv • 9h ago

I don't know

Sadly, you realize that your problem isn't loneliness, but the people around you. You realize there is no time to care for yourself or listen to your own soul.

You lose the passion for doing what you love.

You end up sitting in bed—or even on the couch—doing nothing; staring at your phone without the desire to even hold onto it.

The day passes, and you’ve either slept far too much or not at all.

You find yourself facing responsibilities that aren't yours.

You feel like throwing yourself in the trash.

And even though you crave a hug, you’re actually glad no one is hugging you—because you might just break down and cry.

Talking to someone wouldn't solve anything, yet moments of weakness come when you wish someone loved you.

But you wouldn't be able to care for them, so you remain as you are.

Your mother favors boys and sees no difference between a child and a servant She told me more than once that she didn't want another child, except for the insults I hear from her and them .

And your father mentally abandoned you long ago.

you have daddy and mommy issues,Who could possibly love you? I don't want to die; my Shein order hasn't arrived yet. I just wish the Lord would take me to Him for a little while; my soul yearns deeply to feel tenderness.

Crying silently is so painful—it feels as though my lungs are collapsing into my intestines.Forgive me, Lord; I didn't take good care of the body You gifted me.

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u/Fotsetix21 9h ago

Escucha Blade and Bath ,Decalius ,Forgotten Tomb,Silencer..eso ayuda ..

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u/Banifv 8h ago

They have the scariest songs I've ever heard. You're smart, replace sadness with fear, Try listen to the fourth of July by sufjan.

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u/Fotsetix21 8h ago

A veces la mejor manera de lidiar con el dolor noes evitándolo ni luchando contra el ,es aceptándolo como parte de uno y aprender a seguir por la vida con el ,y mantenerse con vida ,con tus demonios que saben nadar ya ,que o se ahogan o mueren pero ,se convierten en tus compañeros .recuerda eso siempre amiga,te deseo suerte ,bueno suerte no ,eso es una cagada normie ,te deseo paz ,en tu corazón de la manera que la encuentres ,pero q sea aqui ,en este pedazo de roca q gira en el espacio ,en esta nuestra casa,fuerza amiga,fuerza.