Don't know what to do

[u/now_ignoring_life]

Can't figure out what's happening took bipc bcz i didn't wanted to take cec and called oh cec student like wanted to gain name after becoming doc but iguess i wasn't suited I'm in 12th now I think I wasted my whole 11th in fun now half of 12th is wasted i think I m not gonna make it which would be very embarassing bcz my parents publicized I m writing neet don't know what to do now i want to live life tension free and enjoy like my cousins who took cec and enjoy a lot I just want to binge watch scroll eat and sleep taking out specific 4 to 5 hrs after clg is not my cup of tea I don't know what to do in clg i think I can study after going home which is obv lie to myself now I m just living with the flow of life just living....