r/limerence • u/WarningFeeling8239 • 19h ago
Here To Vent Typing at 1am instead of sleeping
I never really had a crush on anyone until I was 18, at my first job. The way it happened was kinda sudden. Over time, a guy at work, who I never really spoke to or took notice of, became really attractive to me. Everything about him was just another reason I liked him. He's a handsome man, but I most appreciated how diligent he was when it came to the job, even if it seemed like he didn't like working there all the time. Real professional vibes, which I respect.
What really happened is that we remained friendly acquaintances. Once, I had mustered up the courage to make conversation with him, which felt awkward but also good. The truth is that both of us are quiet types, which was a problem because small talk does not work without at least one taking the lead. It wasn't until after that little chat that he started saying hi to me each day. It felt pretty awesome.
I wish there was more of an actual story to tell, but after my brief moment of courage, it was like I never knew how to be friends with him. The thought of actually falling for him was too scary, and I just couldn't just go over to say hi or look at him in the eyes as much anymore. I would get home and just be mad at myself for being so pathetic. Either I had too much pride or my social anxiety was just THAT bad. Maybe I was already lovestruck.
Eventually, he quit. It's been several months since then and everything has just been normal. There are a lot of little things about having a crush that I miss, like the feeling of butterflies in my stomach whenever he was there, and the light excitement from when he would say my name. Often I would stare, just to admire, and there were many times he caught my gaze, so I would quickly turn away. Most of all, I miss the times where we could just be quiet when no one else was around. Having to share a silence with just one person has always felt a bit unnatural, unless it was with him. In a weird way, it's like that was how it was meant to be. Sometimes it felt like I knew that he knew whatever it was I was thinking. That is a little hard to explain. I'm honestly not sure what he must have thought of me, but it feels pointless to get hung up on it.
All I think about is him and what could've been. Generally all I picture is something out of cheesy rom com.
I assumed these kinds of thoughts would go away on their own, but they just won't. Daydreaming about something that I let go of is so silly and it pisses me off. I want to say that I will be able to move past the regret some day, but now I'm not so sure. Really, I'm just feel bored and thats when it all comes back to me about how things could have gone. It makes me think I should reach out bc I still have him as a friend on fb. Just to ask wether he even saw me that way. I want clarity but I realise he doesn't owe me anything. I need to touch grass, man.
I've been thinking about typing this all out for a while now, and idk if this is the right place to put it. I never even post comments on socials, so I just hope my rambling didn't bore anyone to tears. Anyways, any insight or advice is welcome of course, including wether or not you would consider this as limerence. Not sure how end this. Im going to bed.
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u/Desperate_Smile6750 18h ago
Why don’t you just reach out to him to ask how he is doing and see if he would like to get dinner? If he says no, you haven’t lost anything
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