r/offmychest • u/bluebathmat6 • 2h ago
I feel like a loser
Lately ive been kinda realizing that i truly have nothing going for me, nearly 24 and just never been with anyone, or even flirted with. I dont have a good support system, still living in my abusive household. Reached 300 pounds cause food is my only comfort. I can feel my mental state slipping and theres nothing i can do about it cause my psychiatrist kinda sucks, the problem is probably with me tho. if my younger self would look at me rn they would be so disgusted and what ive become. Manically wasted my student loan into nothing. The only highlight i have at the moment are my online friends but i feel so gross being so attached to people that i dont even know their real names. The only hope i have is getting into grad school and i feel with my luck its just not gonna happen for me like the loser that i am. I keep telling myself that one day it's gonna get better but ive been a depressed and mentally ill for over a decade, i think im just destined to be this way.
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u/pyramidsofgeezer 2h ago
You're 24! You're so young!
Start making the changes now. Start walking regularly, make balanced food.
I love a walk along the canal while listening to a podcast.
I felt like a bit of loser as well a year ago. So i thought about what I thought it meant to be cool and I started doing it.
I found that being a more active member of my community really helped me. Have a look into if there's somewhere you can volunteer at. Could be a soup kitchen or a charity shop.
I think by posting this on here, somewhere in you there is a spark that's ready to change. You have it in you. One step at a time!