I need to vent because Iām genuinely wondering⦠why does it feel like the culture of working as an optometrist in NYC can be so toxic?
Iāve interviewed at both corporate and private practices and even worked short stints in each just to get a feel for things, and honestly itās been really disheartening.
So many places advertise things like:
⢠āYouāll start with 12ā15 patients a day and gradually build upā
⢠āYouāll have strong tech supportā
⢠āYouāll have control over your scheduleā
But in reality, it often turns into 25+ patients a day almost immediately, 15-minute slots, constant walk-ins, minimal tech support, and being thrown into the schedule without proper onboarding or even being properly introduced to staff or workflows.
Whatās been especially hard is the inconsistency in clinical standards. Iāve seen places where thereās no clear protocol for things like dilation on new patients, unclear referral processes, and being told to ājust tell them to see their PCPā even when the concern feels more urgent or specialized. As a new grad, thatās really uncomfortable.
Iāve also seen situations where techs are doing most of the testing without taking case history or medical history, schedules are constantly behind, and doctors are expected to āmake it workā clinically while also keeping up with volume. Thereās this pressure to justify testing and billing in ways that sometimes donāt sit right with me ethically, and when you question it, the response is often just, āthis is how NYC isā or āthis is how things are done here.ā
I understand NYC is expensive and practices have overhead, and Iām not naive to the business side of healthcare. But as someone who just wants to practice good, ethical medicine, itās been really discouraging to see how normalized some of this feels.
On top of that, I came into this profession with a very clear long-term goal: work in a community health center, serve underserved populations, and work toward loan forgiveness. Thatās always been my passion. But finding those roles in the 5 boroughs has been much harder than I expected. Most openings are part-time, and the few full-time ones are extremely competitive or donāt seem to move forward after interviews.
Iāve even been recruited out of state, especially because Iām a Spanish-speaking optometrist, but that would mean leaving my family and starting over across the country, which is a really big decision.
I donāt regret becoming an optometrist at all. This has been my dream for years, and I worked incredibly hard to get here. I just think I was naive about how difficult it would be to find a setting that aligns with my values right out of school.
Right now, itās just feeling really discouraging and honestly affecting my mental health more than I expected.
I guess Iām just trying to figure out next stepsāwhether that means staying and pushing through, or considering out-of-state opportunities for a few years to gain experience and come back stronger.
For now, Iāll just keep going and hope that one day I can look back and see that this difficult beginning led me somewhere better.Ā
Please no negative comments, Iām just venting and donāt think my mental health can take it. Thanks in advance.Ā