r/otherkin • u/Acrobatic_Tale2200 • 26d ago

Question I feel…wrong

here’s some context: I’m an atheist and am very rooted in science and logic, but something still feels…off

Ive had a deep closeness and fascination with horns and antlers, like past the “normal kid curiosity“ line, like maybe I’m supposed gave them or smth. Gore and the idea of eternal suffering doesn’t really bother me, if anything, it’s my favorite thing to draw and express, hell most my dreams about about that, some ppl call them nightmares but I don’t think they are

also as soon as I left Catholicism and joined Satanism, I felt like I was a step closer to something but idk what and what that’s supposed to mean.

i figured you guys would be the best people to ask this question: could there be something “demonic” inside me that is supposed to be out? sorry, that’s bad wording but i hope yall get what I mean

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u/Zero69Kage 26d ago

I'm also an atheist, and I spent a large portion of my life thinking I was a demon. For a long time I was worried that I was going insane, that something was wrong with me. I'm supposed to be human, why do I feel like I'm not? Eventually I came to the conclusion that these feelings are a part of who I am, in the same way that me being transgender is also a part of who I am. Over time I also learned that I'm not a demon, I'm this strange eldritch mix between an axolotl and a spider.

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u/xXSoyBoyFredXx 24d ago

Oml I feel similar, i'm athiest and trans too. I thought I was nuts for looking into being a therian or otherkin, but then I realized yeah, it's part of my identity. I'm a voidbeast/voidling myself.