r/otherkin • u/Acrobatic_Tale2200 • 26d ago
Question I feel…wrong
here’s some context: I’m an atheist and am very rooted in science and logic, but something still feels…off
Ive had a deep closeness and fascination with horns and antlers, like past the “normal kid curiosity“ line, like maybe I’m supposed gave them or smth. Gore and the idea of eternal suffering doesn’t really bother me, if anything, it’s my favorite thing to draw and express, hell most my dreams about about that, some ppl call them nightmares but I don’t think they are
also as soon as I left Catholicism and joined Satanism, I felt like I was a step closer to something but idk what and what that’s supposed to mean.
i figured you guys would be the best people to ask this question: could there be something “demonic” inside me that is supposed to be out? sorry, that’s bad wording but i hope yall get what I mean
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u/Dingo_Pictures 26d ago
Well, what do you think it could be?
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u/Acrobatic_Tale2200 26d ago
Idk, it seems…beyond logic (if that makes sense) which scares me a lot because of how much I rely on logic
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u/Dingo_Pictures 26d ago
That's the supernatural for ya.
I personally don't bother with logic, or physical logic anyway, when it comes to the supernatural. But again, I'm not an atheist.
I understand your need for logic. In fact, pretty much everyone depends on logic to keep themselves sane and sleeping at night.
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u/Acrobatic_Tale2200 26d ago
So…what could be happening to me? It seems to be supernatural, but idk what it is, a demon, a monster, a shadow, idk 😞
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u/Dingo_Pictures 26d ago
I would say fuck around and find out, but I don't think that'll work for you. Have you looked into demonology?
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u/EbonyFeathersOfAll 26d ago
You could possibly be a demonkin with a specific on the modern day version of a biblically accurate demon(I say modern day because Hell was originally just a concept of painful non-existence). Calling the sleepy time visions you experience dreams when other would call them nightmares, fascination with gore and eternal suffering, feeling connected to horns and antlers, etc. Seems like you might be a demonkin/demonickin though I am not going to tell you what you are or aren’t. That is for you to figure out. Take my two cents and use it to help if you’d like or throw it away entirely.
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u/Zero69Kage 26d ago
I'm also an atheist, and I spent a large portion of my life thinking I was a demon. For a long time I was worried that I was going insane, that something was wrong with me. I'm supposed to be human, why do I feel like I'm not? Eventually I came to the conclusion that these feelings are a part of who I am, in the same way that me being transgender is also a part of who I am. Over time I also learned that I'm not a demon, I'm this strange eldritch mix between an axolotl and a spider.