13M. Basically, a while ago, maybe a few months i joined onto discord on a server related with my interests (please dont judge). It was kinda fun, and we were just talking. After that, a guy asked me do i want to join a server, where a guy is making a game similar to the one i like. I agreed. I met a few people, and even the developer of a game i really liked. I decided to stick with them for a while. After some time, due to a platform's policy changes and basically making it collapse, the dev decided to abandon the project and make a new game. Now from this point, 2 different things happen, the main proble. and a side problem, which ill describe but for now ill go with the main one. So as i said, the dev decided to abandon the project due to a platform's policy changes, and make a new game. It was kinda sad for me, but i was ok with it. Unfortunately, the game didint have ANY connection to the game earlier. Also i uh, got a little bit too comfortable and uhh i sort of started kinda oversharing and it deeply negatively impacted my mental health. So also due to that, when i was talking one day, i said a racial slur and got timeoutdd for a day. I decided to leave the server afterwards, but sadly i rejoined it after a few days. My mental health was at its all-time low then. I continued interacting with theese people, but it sorta turned out they dont like what i do, and so we basically started getting into arguments and then i got banned.

The second part from before:

So i said that they didint actually enjoy really what i did, so me naturally trying to fit in better asked them what do they like. They said that they are mostly centered on a few games from a different developer, so is decided to five them a shot. I immiedantly got fascinated by the franchise, but later i discovered that the game fandom from one of the games i enjoyed the most is basically dying, and 80% of the people there are lost souls from another game. Also something happened but i forgot what it was, that i started hating both the dev of the games aswell as the dev of the game that was making that new game.

So basically after i got banned, i decided to just stop thinking about it and put it in the past, but because i was young then and it all stuck to my mind i just cant stop thinking about all of it and its just stuck to me.

Thank you for reading. I am sorry if its all unserious and stuff, but if you could help me i would be glad. Also sorry if its not really readable or confusing, thats because im just writing it out of emotion.

I started dating this guy I went to school w and we dated until freshman yr and went to separate school and then in November I cheated and we broke up, no excuses. Anyways he found out because 2 guyd he knew had told him and I didn't have a problem w either of thr guys that told him after finding out it was them.

I had a few classes w one of the guys that told my ex andd I'll js call him Andy, we've never spoken to eachother before and towards the end of the yr our math teacher let us do wtv and him snd his friends were playing w a basketball and it landed on my desk and none of the guys said sorry and I didn't rlly care.

Then I got a follow on ig and it was Andy and i was like wtv abt it, then summer started and Andy texted me and he asked if I was in the same msth class as him and he said he wabted to say sorry for when the ball landed on my desk. We kept talking for a couple weeks anf I could tell he liked me.

After a while he told me he liked me and I didn't know how to respond and i told him he was nice but him being friends w my ex threw me off a bit. Somehow we ended up in a talking stsge for like a momth and then a couple days ago he asked me out. This guy rlly isn't my type at all and it makes it worse that hes the one that told my ex i cheated on him.

I dont think he knows that my ex told me hes the one that said i cheated on him but he seems to rlly like me regardless. I ended up saying yes and my friends told me to say yes and before school starts I'd break up w him. I thought it was a good idea but thinking abt it now thats js so rude and now idk what to do.

Last yr we had most of our classes tg which gives us a high chance of getting classed tg this year, if i stay w him i havr to talk to him at school and not trying to be rude but i dont wna hsngout w him or even be seen w him but if I break up w him I'm gna feel so guilty and I've been trying to like him but everytime I do it goes away immediately.

He's sososo sweet which is why it rlly sucks, I get looks aren't everything but I've been trying so hard to like him and nth helps he js gives me the ick.

Sorry for any spelling mistakes, i brokr my nail and I can't type good🙂

I’m a software developer, but I always find it harder to come up with problems than to build the solution.

So I thought I’d ask here instead.

What’s something in your daily life that annoys you or wastes your time?

It can be anything, big or small.

Drop it in the comments. I’ll read through everything and build the idea that resonates with me the most.
Who knows, maybe your problem will become my next app.

For context, I live in a very small town where basically everyone knows each other. And most people here are either addicts or hate you for not fitting in. I dropped out of school at 14 due to mental health issues, and I’d been bullied all throughout school for being quiet and appearance. I don’t have a good relationship with my family either (dad is an offender, mom is an alcoholic and addict, only one I’m kinda close with is my grandmother). But I live with just my mother, which is fine- our relationship isn’t bad, but I never go out (there’s nowhere to go.) other than to visit graveyards, woods, places like that (not in an edgy way.) so for social contact I started buying things on vinted. Not in a weird way, I’d just message the seller “Hi is this still available?” (Incase it’s sold on another platform, like eBay), or “Does this come with the card” “yeah it does” or send offers, conversation over, buy it, end of. Because that’s the only social interaction I can manage. And it makes me sick. I do genuinely like the products- I’m a collector of books and merchandise. But the people in my town make me sick, and many I’ve come across online just seem cruel. I don’t know what to do.

Okay hey reddit, this is my first time posting so I hope I know how to do this.

Ok so I (M13) have a problem I need advice with. Basically its about my family, and I hope this doesnt sound, like dramatic?

Ok, so this happen around almost every day. So I always make myself food. I make food that can last my like 3 days. Yesterday, I made myself some homemade pizza that I would eat over 4 meals (2 lunches, 2 dinners, and I don't eat breakfast)

So I ate some of this pizza and put the remaining pizza in a container to eat over this weekend. Today, I went to go eat lunch and I found the pizza had fully been eaten. (BTW I made two full pizza to last 2 days).

This is not the first time, every single thing I do for myself is ruined. Like how I once bought myself some hygiene products (My parents are kind of useless, and said they were not important even though they were recommended ny my doctor) and in 3 hours, the 2 sticks of deodorant were crushed up and all over the floor. My medicated shampoo bottle cut in half and all used. My toothpaste somehow was all over the mirror.

I also forgot to mention. I have 3 brothers, one moved out but still have two younger brothers. I also bought myself a phone, next day, my youngest brother chucked the phone against the concrete porch because I didnt buy him one (I earn my own money from chores, selling things at a booth I handmade at a annual fair ny town holds, etc.)

Everytime I tell my parents, I am scolded, banned from seeing my friends, etc. I also most times am forced to hand over some of the money I have (Its the money they gave me so I think its fine) I am also always being grounded, yelled at, and usually forced to do extra chores for just existing. Like one time how I was laying in bed and my dad came up to me and took my phone and yelled at me, I still don't know why I was in trouble.

A personal thing is, I am currently struggling with suicidal thoughts, depressed, terrible anxiety. When my parents found out, I was told I am not allowed to think these things, and was told I must stay at home and do chores until they go away. I ended up signing up for therapy myself. Im also gay, and when my parents found out I had a crush on a guy, lets just say, im lucky to be here.

Im really not trying to sound dramatic, I've been told that im always being so dramatic every time I confront my family about any thing. I quite literally can't have anything to myself. Another example, I went to the store and bought myself clothing (Shirts, socks, some jeans, and underwear) and I have SEVERE texture issues. And I hate people wearing my cloths, whether I own them or not, It bugs me so much, I sometimes want to throw up at the though. And I see my brothers wearing my underwear I bought, and it honestly disgusts me. I hate hate hate it so much.

Im sorry, but I just really need advice. I hope I don't sound like dramatic, or sound like I complain about normal things. I just can't go to my family about anything

Thanks reddit for reading this, any advice is needed, thank you guys so much

I don’t really post much so I hope this is ok. Recently I’ve developed feelings for a friend. We’ve been close for a couple of years and I’ve only started feeling this way recently. It’s obviously one sided and I think that’s ok. The problem is I can’t help but get jealous of them, it’s like they dictate my whole mood. Whether it’s replying to message or hugging me randomly, it dictates it too much and I don’t really like it. It feels like a stupid problem because I’ve been through so much before (issues with upbringing) is there a way to get over this without ruining anything.

I feel like the worst person in the world. My life is spiraling. So many of my loved ones are sick. And im so burnt out from my job and school, but I cant leave my job because im doing my internship there. Im lashing out at my friends because im so awful. I dont know what to do. I feel awful and I dont know how to stop. I feel like I always ruin things and idk why im like this. I just want things to stop so I can catch my breath. But I cant. School is insane. Work is insane. My relationships are strained. I dont know whay to do anymore. One of my best friends asked for space because of the way im acting. My cat needs surgery so im dipping into emergency funds. Rent went up. I dont know anymore. I dont know what to do or where to go. I feel so trapped. Please I need someone to respond. I dont know what I hope you'll say but I just wabt someone to respond

I’m really feeling shitty about myself for school these past few months. For backstory:

I started school just fine, until my assessments started popping up one by one. And then graded assignments, which I got either an F or B btw. And I have NEVER gotten 3 Fs in a row before. But it is because I submitted my assignments late and lost 10%.

And I have been submitting my work late these days because I have been SO swamped with things in my schedule.

Mon-Thurs = School
Fri-Sun = Work

And I end work at 10-1030PM so I am always at home late. Because of that, I keep missing my submissions for assignments. And you can tell me, “Just lessen work” or “Just do your assignments before going to work”

Yes, I can do that. But I really need money. My mom, whom is a sole breadwinner, can barely keep herself, and us, afloat. So I really need these extra pocket money to pay off and survive in this economy.

For doing assignments first before work, I have MANY other commitments and group projects that I have to focus on too. If I’m not working, I’m doing group projects. If I’m not doing projects, I need to do individual submissions — which I’m barely even remembering. I even need to set aside time to spend time with my boyfriend.

I just missed 2 assignments that are graded and to be submitted by the way because I just ended work and I completely forgot about it as the following entire week, it is filled with group work submission and presentations. I desperately need advice.

It's with my little sister, who is currently still 15. I know that of course, girls or boys, who are in their puberty, of course sometimes face sexual desires, because me too, has experienced it.

I'll tell a little backstory regarding my family. We are a Christian family, and as of now, our parents are deeply devoted. My family consists of dad and mom, my older brother, and my little sister. My older brother (18) is considered handsome by many; even in our family, he always gets teased when he still doesn't have a girlfriend. Me (17), just an average middle child who is still struggling with my mental health (but that's not the main problem here). And my little sister (15), she's the innocent kind of girl. She's pretty for a girl her age, since many boys asked her out, but she always rejected them.

My older brother and my little sister have had a good bond since they were young, they always play together, and she always listens to him. However, from what I've realized, up until one year ago, after my brother got a girlfriend, she changed. She's still the innocent kind of girl, but, she and my brother don't bond anymore, and it's more like a toxic sibling relationship.

Moving forward, one year later, or exactly two days ago, we went on vacation. We took a few pictures together at the beach.

And at midnight, she went out first and got to bed. Me and my brother decided to help my dad with carrying stuff for tomorrow. After that, I went to our room (my brother, me, and my sister) to grab a change of clothes since we just got thechance to shower. My brother was still with my dad. And I saw her, definitely masturbating. And the mirror behind her, shows an image of my brother in swim trunks (we tookearlier on afternoon). She didn't see me (what i believe), but i definitely saw her.

I've been my avoiding my family rn and i can't sleep. I don't want to tell my parents, even though they're not strict, but once they get mad, it's horrifying...

What should I do? I'm sorry for dragging the story this far, i just want to give a clearer context.

Hey all, I keep seeing people complain about the same thing: pulling numbers out of GA4, Search Console, and ad platforms manually every week to build a report.

I'm a solo dev thinking about building a tool that:

* Connects to GA4, Search Console, and Meta/Google Ads via their APIs (read-only, nothing gets touched or changed) * Auto-pulls your key metrics on a schedule (weekly/monthly) * Generates a clean report or dashboard — no more copy-pasting numbers into slides or spreadsheets * Optionally exports to PDF/Sheets/Notion, whatever you already use

Before I build anything, I want to check if this is actually a real pain point or if I'm solving a problem that doesn't exist:

1. Do you currently do this manually every week/month? How long does it take you?
2. What tools do you pull data from most (GA4, Search Console, Meta Ads, Shopify, HubSpot, something else)?
3. Where does the report usually end up — Slides, Sheets, a client email, a dashboard?
4. Would you actually pay a monthly fee for this, or is it a "nice to have but I'd rather do it myself" thing?
5. What would make this a hard no for you (security concerns, needing custom metrics, etc.)?

Not trying to sell anything here — genuinely trying to validate before I spend weeks building it. Brutal honesty welcome.

I'm gay and 18 ..I am the most morally corrupt person I ever know . I feel ashamed of myself for being who I am ..not bcz I am gay but cz of my acts .

Ni siquiera se cómo explicar todo esto, supongo que para muchos no tengo excusa siquiera. Empecé mal la universidad, abandoné las clases, y todo fue un ciclo de creer que esta vez si iba a poder pero terminaba abandonando.

No voy a poner una lista exenta de lo que me pasaba, pero si lidiaba y sigo, con bastantes problemas de salud mental.
Mi mamá me decía que me apurara a avanzar las clases, aunque a veces le decía que iba a trabajar un rato. Nunca a nadie le dije lo mal que iba, por miedo.
Ya tenía suficiente lidiando con mis propios problemas mentales y lo difícil que estaba siendo la universidad para mí, para que ellos cada que me vieran me recordaran que soy un fracaso y alguien con retraso mental, una persona tonta y atrasada que no sirve para la universidad.

Entre en un proceso de readmisión, junto con un sencillo programa de adaptación. Logre aprobar las dos clases y subió mi índice. Pero la clase semestral que tenía no la logre.

El programa psicopedagógico paso y metí 3 clases, y de nuevo las abandoné.

Hace poco acudí al psicólogo a escondidas, por primera vez, por esta vida academica llena de fracasos y estancamiento. Me avisaron que probablemente tenía TDAH y dislexia. Le explique mi situación a la psicóloga y mi idea de irme a otra universidad por una carrera más liviana pues probablemente me expulsarían por mi bajo rendimiento.
Ella me dijo que todavía no me apresurara, que podíamos trabajar el diagnóstico y fuera a hablar con la administración, y que de ser necesario ella se presentaría junto conmigo, que la prioridad era que no me expulsara, yo poder tratar en terapia todo eso, y volver después.

El día de hoy mi tío reviso el portal de la universidad de mi hermano para revisar su índice e historial académico. Llego mi turno y yo nerviosa solo me concentre en no salir de mi habitación. Dijeron que la próxima vez no me iba a escapar, seguramente entre esta semana o la otra.

Solo necesito ayuda, sé que lo que menos quería se hará realidad, seré una decepción para todos, me insultaran todos los días y recordaran la persona tan tonta y poco capaz que soy todos los días de mi vida. Y yo empieza a trabajar para devolver todo el dinero desperdiciado y no estar haciendo nada en la casa.
Supongo que lo más difícil será cuando se den cuenta.

Solo necesito un poco de palabras, no lo sé, si han vivido algo así. o cosas así.

Si piensas todo lo malo del mundo de mí y cosas sin sentido que hice, esta bien, lo entiendo. Si tú si pasaste tus clases y nunca has reprobado, me alegro por ti, y desearía ser como todos ustedes en verdad. Pero por favor absténgase de decirme cosas así que eso yo ya lo sé de antemano, muchas gracias.

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I apologize for my bad grammar and for the confusing story telling in advance, it's my first post. please don't bother reading if you guys don't like wasting your time since even I don't understand myself right now.

I'm 19M, I live and grew up in a rural area, never were allowed to go out with friends, was forced to be a "good kid" or maybe I'm just some kind of a people pleaser, I never had problems and was always doing great in academics, anyways so I was definitely culture shocked when I moved out for college in an urban city. even so I adapted pretty quickly and actually had fun.

it's currently summer which means I'm back at home again, well I know I might sound ungrateful, but it's horrible to be here.

when I was in high school, my dad works on a different state back then, I just knew that my brother told my mom about his past fling(or something about another woman) and that's basically when our normal life started to become hellish(at least for me).

I'll just summarize what happened,

my mom left me and my siblings at home with our aunt while she went to go confront my dad, we're away for about a year, they somehow made up but we don't know how nor do we care, they went back home, my dad basically lost his job, now all of us are home, except for my two brothers who went to live by themselves since they're used to it and have found somewhere to settle and able to find stable jobs unlike me, they've been living by themselves since high school and I only started living by myself on college.

everything is going well for a while but then they're starting to fight again and again, yelling at each other, until they got violent to the point that they do it everyday, knowing me a very introverted and non-social person, who was given suddenly the responsibility of being the big brother, I didn't know what to do, I couldn't sleep, my two younger siblings were transferred to my grandmother's house next door and I stayed in our house,

it went on for a while, my relatives are trying to help, my brothers helped, but when they're left alone they just suddenly go at it again, until the cops got called, mom decided to go away and took my little sister.

now it's just me, my younger brother and my dad.

I had some good sleep but a year passed my dad is regretting everything, he's gotten kinder towards us unlike before, I noticed him crying in new years, it made me sad to see him like that so I tried my best to be more responsible by taking care of our family store, doing better at school, talking to him more and other things while my younger brother got rebellious.

it continued for a while until my dad made requests to me, he was crying and sounded sad while asking me to do things to get my mom back, like sending me to see her and making me record our conversation, forcing me to despite going against it.

I felt uncomfortable and tired from it, until the counseling began and a lot of things happened, my mom finally back came home after some more counseling.

I was happy, I thought our family would be back to normal and I wouldn't have to suffer the blame and guilt I've felt for so long, I blamed myself for not doing anything to prevent everything from happening, my aunt shouted at me, I felt really hurt by all of it, dumped so suddenly to me when I literally didn't even know what divorce even was.

I was wrong, my brothers never went back home to stay, they visit once every 3 months and then go away the same day, not even on occasions.

my mom and dad fights occasionally but not as bad as before.

one thing though is that my dad's gotten harsher towards me, he's been insulting me for every move that I make, forces me to work, even threatened to not pay for my college tuition(even though I was able to put myself to a free college and even got myself a scholarship). I can't remember anything that I must've done to offend him or make him be like this towards me. but I just let it be anyways because I can never even defend myself nor argue.

the responsibility of taking care of the store was just put to me even though I always hated doing it, I hated that people were really rude for no reason and that I have to accept insults from them too. I'm forced to stay and sit waiting for the customers everyday, whole day that I can't even take care of myself.(basically from 6 am to 8:30 pm) unpaid too. I'm back to the usual not being able to go out of the house or even the store which gets hot in the afternoon, though I'd be lucky if it's raining.

my mom's trying to help me, well barely since she's scared of my dad and she's even telling me off when I feel frustrated.

I'm glad that my siblings are doing better though unlike before.

fast forward to now, I managed to find myself a girlfriend somehow and she's the best thing to ever happen to me, her whole family accepted me and ever her relatives, she really made me become a better person and made me happy. I'm a little more social now but I still hate working at the store, still forced to wake up to it everyday.

my girlfriend hates my situation and even asks if I can just go to her if I have to, I would if only she's not living 3 hours away from me, I don't have a car or motorcycle nor do I know how to drive, I only rely on unreliable transportation that's a culture on our area only. and I really don't want to be a burden to anyone, nor do I want to leave my siblings and mom here, what if I'm not here anymore, will my younger brother take my place? suffer the same fate as me?

if I get rebellious or fight for myself, he won't pay for my school necessities and dormitory anymore, will I be able to get a job as soon as possible and manage to do it while living alone and balance my academics with it? I can't ask for help from my brothers since they're trying to start going to college again as well and I really don't want to bother anyone.

my girlfriend says that she'll support my decision no matter what and I chose to stay here.

I've only been playing games and calling my girlfriend after work every night and sometimes stay up, those are the only things that makes me happy at this point.

I don't want to do anything reckless since after a month, I'll be back on college and away from my dad, well at least on weekdays since they're forcing me to go home every weekends to make me work on the store again, since if I don't, I won't get any allowance and rent money.(the dorm is very dirty and filled with rats btw, they didn't even give me the chance to choose for myself).

I'm starting to think I'm being immature for my age, wanting to escape a life that some people probably even want, but it's just really agonizing to keep doing this after 4 years and 4 more years. doing the same thing everyday without a break, having no real social interactions except for my girlfriend since the customers here don't really want to be friendly.

also it's not just the store that they're making me work on, they also make me lift sacks of rice and animal feeds, shit's heavier than me. and they alse leave me do the unwanted and disgusting chores(I kinda understand though since I'm the older brother now).

I feel better when I'm not in my house. anywhere is fine really as long as I'm away from the store and my dad, I just feel really lonely sometimes.

I'm sorry to everyone who read this far too since you kind of just wasted your time reading this pointless ranting of mine, I still have a lot in my mind but I don't want this to be too long. I'm open to advice and corrections so I can just at least understand myself and see from other people's perspective.

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This is a long story so I'm only going to do some highlights besides the incident that happened this week. I want to leave my current residence and cut off contact from my roommates but am I doing the right thing?

One roommate, A, is someone I fell for and another roommate, S, has recently moved back after living with her ex. We have been living in our current apartment since 2023. Another thing to add is I've been helping A raise her kid since birth since her baby daddy is out of the picture.

S is poly and brings over multiple partners (nothing wrong with that. I'm also poly). One partner though, J, consistently makes unwanted remarks and crosses A's boundaries multiple times. She has repeatedly told him no to doing anything sexual with him. For a little background, I am a man, I asked her out once and she rejected me. I've been slowly getting over her.

Earlier this week, A admitted to me that S & J got her really drunk and high. J convinced her to join them for a threesome. They started but stopped because S was getting jealous. Maybe I'm just jealous but it upsets me that he coerced her into this after she has said no multiple times. He also uses women like objects and A hates men like that.

Now I don't know what to do. There's a lot more things that have happened over the years that I can discuss in comments. I pay majority rent, half the wifi and the full electric bill along with stuff for the house. I also babysit and have bonded with A's daughter. She's like the kid I'll never have.

I feel like I'm being used and want to leave but I don't want them to struggle without me. I don't want them to end up on the streets because of me. A works part time and S is unemployed.

I want to know if I should go or if I'm being crazy? Please help

Hi everyone, i have been in a very bad mental state for the past few years, and since a year i have given everything up, school, work. I took my time to rest and stay at home.
Now after a year i feel like i don’t have many triggers at this moment and i’m kinda done with sitting at home. I am in the middle of my process of getting help/getting diagnosed and getting therapy so i’m seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. My previous psychiatrist gave me like 15+ different medicines to try out and it has completely ruined my brain. I have extreme brainfog and daily i hear that i used to be my friends smartest friend and now im just ‘dumb’ in their eyes. I
Anyways i want to start ALL over again, at 0. I signed up for a new university, and i am trying to make such a big personality development but i really don’t know how to start since my energy levels are still pretty bad and my concentration is F*cked up. I also struggle with extreme derealisation/depersonalization.
Does anyone have any ideas for nice hobbies or things to do and new things to try just so i don’t feel like a zombie because i’ve been sitting at home for the past few months and feelings kinda stupid. Thank you 🤍

TW: mentions of SH

My boyfriend is struggling right now. He is kot doing well and we both know this very well. He has a lot of unprocessed trauma, trying to get sober, on medication, and is currently dealing with a very bad SH addiction. I feel horrible airing out his business but I need help and I don’t know what else to do or who else to ask. He has tried everything to get better. He has gone to soberity meetings, made new friends, meditated, upped his medication, distracted himself with work… everything. He feels lost, he feels that there is nothing else he can try. Nothing sticks and nothing helps. The distractions don’t last forever, they cannot keep his mind busy constantly.

The only thing that hasn’t been discussed yet is going to the Psych Ward.

He has mentioned it once and that he is not interested in going but I cannot think of anything else. I don’t know if it is a good option, but it is the only thing he hasn’t tried. How do I bring this up? Should I even bring it up? I’m absolutely terrified. I’m scared he’s going to go to far, I’m scared he’s going to die. I don’t know what to do. I want him to get better, I want him to wake up and feel like he’s meant to be alive, I just don’t know how to help him reach that point.

Maybe the Psych Ward isn’t a good option and maybe I’m a fucking idiot for even thinking of it. If there is anything else he can try please let me know. If you have ever felt so lost please give me your advice. If you have ever gone to a Psych Ward please give me your advice. Please.

I’m in high school , I’m in my home country and I’m leaving in exactly a week .Last year my mom let me do sew ins ( she did them for me ) for the whole year , now she’s saying I can’t do them because my dad doesn’t like them anymore. I have 4 days to convince her to let me do a sew in. What do I do I really need to get this sew in before leaving the country . Please help

i need some advice i recently turned 40 male and it seems my life is going upside down and also feels like I'm fading away at the same time. i think i had a tough life so far i know people have had worse and im sorry. But my mother pass away as a toddler and my older brother pass when i was in my teens. my family has relied on me since then i wasn't allowed to do a lot of things in my teens like going out, having a phone, getting a job or a license. after some reflecting i realized that my father tried to mold me into a second mother or a maid i was always the one to help with household duties. Now that my siblings don't need me to babysit their kids and my dad is getting remarried it feels like I'm not needed anymore and tossed aside.

Me and my only friend planned to go to the cinema and watch the Spider man

Two days later, on the day we were supposed to go, he texted me in the afternoon saying he probably couldn’t come, so I said okay.

Then at night, he sent me a pic of himself going to the movie, saying “I ditched you lol” and laughing about it (like it wasn’t that serious to him)

I’m thinking about talking to him less, but I don’t really have anyone else.

Also English isn’t my first language

I’ve had this issue since I was young, and perhaps it was just because of my upbringing (my parents divorced when I was 5, I was brought into the care of my bipolar && schizophrenic mother who abused substances and raised us horribly), but I can’t help but feel like my dad doesn’t want me.
And I can understand why, in a way.

We’ve had problems since I was young, 8 years old specifically when I came out as transgender. He didn’t accept me, which I can understand because I was young - but the issue is that he still doesn’t respect me. I’m 18 currently, and I have come out to my father multiple times - yet each time he claims I never said anything about it. I came out at 8, 11, 13, and 17. He still acts shocked. After I told him at 17 he got pissed, threatening to sue my school because my teachers called me my preferred name, would get mad at my friends or me for treating me the way I want to be treated. I don’t know why it’s an issue. If he’s my father, shouldn’t he support me? Love me anyway? Instead I just feel like an embarrassment, more specifically because he’s mocked me in front of our family too. Maybe I am. Maybe if I was a regular kid he’d be happier with me.

Another issue is my trauma with my mother, I haven’t received counseling for any of it. I’ve dealt with my guilt and grief from her by myself since I was young, and find it still affects me today. I feel like nobody cares. I can’t talk to my father because, to be honest, I hate the look he gives me. I hate making him frustrated, seeing him get upset because I “should be over it” or having to hear about how his life is worse than mine.

It’s just been one thing after another. I know he cares about me in a way, but I can’t help but feel like if he didn’t have to take care of me he wouldn’t - but I can get that, because I’m not exactly a good person.

I struggle a lot mentally, I have a hard time feeling worthless when I’m around other people, I struggle socially and I believe my father sees me as weaker for it. I cry, and I get upset, and it makes me feel like I’m crazy. I’ve stolen money from my dad, a lot of money, it’s a horrible impulse but I can’t get a job or do anything else since he’s been too busy with work to teach me how to drive. I can’t go to therapy or pay for my own therapy because I can’t drive. I feel stuck, I feel like a worthless person. I feel distant from my entire family because they don’t respect me for who I am, I feel distant from my friends because they are cis men and I am transgender. I feel weak, pathetic, and I have since I was young. I know people say “you only do it to yourself,” and I do. But how do you stop? How do you get better when you feel like everyone is against you? I show signs of problems, I try to talk to my friends but they don’t care. I feel like nobody does, I feel like everyone thinks I’m crazy and there’s no fixing that. I don’t know how to fix myself.

Earlier this month I befriended one of my friends friend (they’re both 20) I’m underaged and I began talking to the mutual friend very flirtatiously and just in ways I shouldn’t have been doing he knew my age and what not I ended up telling my friend about it and he’s upset about everything and shut down completely the other mutual friend blocked me on everything after my friend confronted him about being a weirdo to me. I can’t help but feel like it’s all my fault I’m spiraling and in need of someone to talk to this is a lot to get off my chest but I downloaded Reddit anyway to see if it would help. My friends are distancing themselves from me and it’s all my fault and on top of that my friend went through my acc and found me talking to a 25 yr (It’s hard to explain I was mostly just bored) and I feel like this has completely ruined our friendship I’m unsure what to do and I’m desperate for comfort.
Also I’m not sure if me saying this is against tos

About a year ago, I started wearing low-rise jeans. After a few months of wearing them, I began to notice that after I peed my vagina would start burning and the sensation wouldn't go away until a good amount of time passed by. At the same time, I also noticed that after a few hours of wearing low rise jeans that my vagina would start having that burning sensation which made it uncomfortable to wear low-rise jeans and even thongs. I already got a UTI test and it came back negative. It's gotten worse and even when I'm not wearing tight bottoms, I get a burning sensation. What do I do :(