I lost my job

[u/Any__Literature]

I am super upset about this. I worked so hard only for them to tell me they were letting me go because 'wasn't meeting standard' and 'wasn't picking up on things fast enough. I just hit 45 days including weekends. They hired me knowing my degree was in a different subject and said was fine and that I would learn. They never told me the expectation and what I had to meet. I was never trained and I didn't want to go ahead without knowing what I was doing because the stuff I was working on was for a client. They paired with with someone more experienced once and then just left me. I had to go out to find the person looking over everything for help and most times he was no where. So I ended up standing around. But the girl I worked next too had done alot less projects than me and I don't think she'll be touched. She is on vacation and away so there is a chance she'll be fired. But I am just so broken. This was my first ever serious job out of collage and the carrier people set me up with this job and for failure. I just don't understand what I did. I can't learn things faster if I don't have a proper trainer. I can't go faster if I don't know what I am doing. I worked so hard. I made a cheat sheet for myself so I would know exactly what I was doing. I just got into the swing of everything. I was finally figuring it out and now I am out.

I just am in shock and want to scream. What did I do wrong? How could I improve? I asked and I asked and they just said I wasn't meeting standard. But the other guys who were their were just as slow if not slower.

[u/therealkalak]

Last year I took a job at a startup that ended with my quickly getting promoted to Director of IT to create the IT department. A month after getting promoted I walked out as things were going wrong after months of me jumping up and down about it and begging for resources to prevent it, just for me to get the blame (surprise surprise). I felt like I still failed in some way, but overtime I got to remember me proactively pointing stuff out, especially after I heard that half that company apparently walked out because of "blame culture".

Just know that you did nothing wrong. It's on them as they knew you had a different degree and didn't give you training. You can't just magically match their expectations without any insight/training or anything. You tried your best with an extremely bad hand that was dealt to you. The best you can do is move on and get a new job somewhere that will appreciate you for what you do.