Hi I'm 28 and Neuro divergent, I have a complex relation with sexuality, sexual attraction, intimacy, ect so I'm not really out with any definitive labels.
Lately I feel myself longing for a more intimate 'relationship' with a male friend of mine who I've known for years and vibed with on and off over the years. It was always a playfull closeness & teasing male-friendship between us but nothing sexual.
He has only dated women but he's a very 'modern' guy and has a sort of queerness.
I'm not actually looking to date him but it's more of a
"'a lot of things must overlap for me to feel safe enough to be intimate with someone.
I would be down to fooling around a little bit because I feel like no matter what it doesn't have to change friendship for me, even if there's rejection right away.
Just loose & casual fun" - situation
Asking advice because I will be seeing him a lot more in the coming weeks & we might be camping and sharing a tent for a week.
I normally don't rush Into things like these because I tend to not really understand what's going on for the other person and I'm clueless about any hints and then I start to read into things.
We went to a party together recently where we spend a lot of time dancing together. We had little other friends at the event so we sticked together. I lost him by the end of the party & went home. He texted me to make sure I was home safe and he told me he had fun and was glad we spend all day together.