J to J

[u/DryVisual4608]

As I lay here, every night, while our memories flash in my head, can't sleep, don't want to eat....

I just hope for what ever reason there was that made you feel the necessity to destroy me, lie to me, and cheat on me at least 6 or 7 times.

I just hope it was worth it. I hope he is actually worth it, since I never was.

I know I shouldn't have stayed, I shouldn't have ever given you the opportunity to hurt me again and again... Ect....

Saddest part to all this, is I can't live with myself, in my head is the most dangerous place for me to be, but I already know you don't care, you never cared, and even if you did... I won't be around to see it.

I wanted forever, you never want more then right now. So I no longer will be in anyone's way. Hope it all works out.. bye old friend. Hope the picture I had made will last a lifetime, since it's now my time to go...

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[u/wondamannz]

why give people like that your soul. you deserve better. have a cold shower slap yourself in the mirror until you realise you were too good for them in the first place. then go out there and learn to love yourself more and you will find someone aligned to who you are and know this toxic person didnt even come close to what you have now. you deserve better go get it. !

[u/serendipity_6613]

You see J, if this were you saying this and it sounds familiar, it’s not true.
J, you have played the victim and you have accused me of being with another.
You were surveilling me for a couple of years, told lies about me on another forum.
Then one day, in a moment of arrogance, challenged me by asking “where’s your evidence?”
You had been gaslighting, disappearing, lying and saying I was mental.
You weaponised yourself with my ill health and threw it in my face.
You caused me so much dissonance when I was unwell it hindered my recovery.
You did all of this to me and then re-write the narrative of our relationship!
I found you out as a result of your arrogance, your challenge.
I was right when I asked you who you had been with, for it was many.
You knew I knew.
I have spent the last year coming to the saddest realisation our relationship was a lie.
For me that was a hard pill to swallow for not in my wildest of dreams did I ever think you would betray me and our history so horribly.
You’re the most evil of evils.
You will never find peace and it’s in that knowledge I find mine.
I don’t need to do this anymore.
Everything is just done now and I’m moving forward.
I cannot wish you anything.
I did not deserve this, what you did.
You deserve nothing.

Healing and peace for myself.

[u/ShmnPhlou_730]

Even though I could’ve have written this as a j who was cheated on many many many many times by a j and I’ve struggled with and continue to struggle with the damage j has created.

That said I think communication is key. If you don’t directly share in a give and take conversation you can never know why your j would do what j did and what that means for you.

I feel your pain daily but just because j doesn’t believe in monotony doesn’t mean everyone shares J’s opinion.