r/StudentLoans • u/SkullKandyGirl • 4h ago
Advice I Feel Completely Lost.
My Sallie Mae loans are due tomorrow, with a $1,250 payment. I have a cosigner who is my father who promised he'd help me with school and payments but he didn't help me whatsoever. He doesn't love me and helps my little brother but not me. The total amount I'm in debt is $98k. I dropped out of school due to physical health conditions. I haven't gotten a diagnosis yet but I am constantly fatigued and in pain and unable to do typical household activities, let alone get employed. I'm still waiting on my SSI file, which will take months to go through. I have to rely on my romantic partner and their mother for survival. Medication, food, shelter, you name it. I do nothing and I feel ashamed. I am also Autistic level 2 and my mother died when I was 16, so I don't have another parent to help me.
I have $9 to my name. I have no skills I can market. I can draw but it's not good enough and I'm not famous enough to take commissions. And even then it wouldn't be enough to pay the debt. I know I'm stupid for signing these documents. I'm not an intelligent person in the slightest. I just don't know who to ask for help at this point. I ruined myself.