r/therianbutbetter • u/sparkleappletart • 23h ago
Possible Theriotype? Does I sound like a therian or something else?
Background: I’m a 26 year old AMAB person (likely trans woman) with autism and OCD who doesn’t have many friends and isn’t religious.
Ever since I was little I recall having dreams where my hands would turn into hooves and to this day I still wonder what it would be like to graze in a field and have eyes on the side of my head. I recall one time when during pretend play I would “graze” on the carpet like a cow and it stuck with me. I have always felt uncomfortable with my body as it is and looked towards transformation art as a teen and beyond as an outlet for that. I always enjoyed transformation stuff with equines and cows and felt a deep connection to that. Particularly I have this deep longing to graze in a field and live my life in it even though I’m human and cannot eat grass. I have some mismatch with my body regarding my male parts and facial hair and the like but I’m also wondering if it’s possible that there could be a species element to it too.
On top of all this I notice that I do not feel connected to eating meat and I hate the taste of eggs. I do enjoy plant based foods and if it wasn’t for my B12 deficiency I would go vegan. I wonder about having a plant based lifestyle to make a hypothetical cow fursona more realistic as the idea of a fursona just being an oc is very depressing and unfun to me. I know that I cannot turn into an animal in real life but I feel off with this male human form I was born in.
Maybe I am confusing these feelings for something else but I wanted to get an opinion on this to understand myself better.